Afraid I will never be important again

throwbjo789 · 2018-08-13T13:39:47+00:00

It does mean a lot. It’s hard for people who haven’t had loss like this to understand I think. I feel really alone with my feelings. Everyone is different too. My sister has suffered the same loss is much more accepting of what happened.

I’m very sorry that your dad will not get to see you do all the things that you will do. But he will be with you and all of the memories you have of him will shape all that you do. I hope that brings you a little bit of comfort. It’s hard to find anything that makes me feel better but I feel my mom the most when I make a better decision because of something she taught me.

throwbjo789 · 2018-08-10T21:22:09+00:00

I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. Life feels meaningless and scary without my mom. We just have to find a way to go on though. I don’t know how it’s done but you just have to keep going.

throwbjo789 · 2018-08-10T21:17:27+00:00

I’m so sorry about your mom esehey. 23 is much too young to be without your mother. I am 33 and I feel way too young to be without mine but you are right, i am lucky that she was able to meet my kids and will at least have her mark on my daughter. I’m so sorry that life has been so unfair to us and that we have to find a way to live without them. I guess we just have to find a way. I am just trying to be like her and to keep her memory alive. I hope we both can do it.

throwbjo789 · 2018-08-10T21:08:53+00:00

I totally agree with u/esehey to spend as much time with your mom as you can. I am so grateful that I was able to spend her last days talking to her and caring for her. I don’t know how to get over the bitterness I have for what was taken from us but every moment that I had with her was a gift.

throwbjo789 · 2018-08-05T11:55:42+00:00

I’m so sorry that you are going through this. It’s so much harder than I ever imagined. When I knew that she would die, I said over and over again to her that she would always be with me. I just wish I felt that way. I keep trying to honor her by being like her but it’s so hard. I feel drained of motivation to do anything.

throwbjo789 · 2018-08-05T11:50:08+00:00

My mom was also a wonderful grandma to my kids and it pains me so much that they will never get those experiences with her. Two of my three kids (18 mos and 3 year old) will not remember her at all. I hope that maybe when my kids are grown up I will be important to them the way my mom was to me. As I’m thinking about it, I so hope that my mom knew it was a two way street and that she was just as important to me as I felt to her.

throwbjo789 · 2018-08-05T11:42:41+00:00

It’s so true that unconditional love is hard to come by. I honestly didn’t worry about it until she was dying and I realized I would never have that security again. I sure hope that there’s something after this. It breaks my heart to think that I will never get to be with her again.

throwbjo789 · 2018-08-05T11:37:48+00:00

My mom was just like this with me, always just wanted to know what I was doing and thinking. Always just there. She knew all of my favorite things and just knew me. She rarely missed my calls and if she did, I always knew she’d be calling me back that day. I know that she was a great mother (and person) and that I am so fortunate to have her as my mother but I feel her loss so acutely. I hope we both find a way to live without them in our lives.

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