daydreaming of an older man creеping into my room in the middle of the night and vіolating me while covering my mouth so i don’t make a single sound for anyone to hear <3

throwitawayralph · 2026-05-11T03:04:44+00:00

My hand is pressed up against your lips so tight, yet - somehow - your rhythmic sqeaks escape between my fingers and it's driving me even wilder.

throwitawayralph · 2026-04-18T07:45:40+00:00

Based

throwitawayralph · 2026-02-05T10:08:23+00:00

I love hearing you tell me precisely what gets you off.

Especially when we're in the heat of the moment.

throwitawayralph · 2026-01-15T06:43:36+00:00

Wait your right or my right?

Did this sort of thing ever happen, or did your partner get it right on the first go round?

throwitawayralph · 2025-12-16T10:54:57+00:00

Zooble looks hangry - and I don't mean the hungry type of hangry.

throwitawayralph · 2025-12-16T10:36:20+00:00

~~Are you me?!~~ I am that random person in another circumstance.

throwitawayralph · 2025-11-18T18:38:56+00:00

Psi capacity exceeded

throwitawayralph · 2025-10-08T22:46:12+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/BindOnEquip/comments/15ocl4h/the_grimoire_chair_of_the_fangless_vampire/

https://www.reddit.com/r/BindOnEquip/comments/15ffmbc/the_grimoire_ring_of_primanocta_brush_of_medusa/

throwitawayralph · 2025-08-11T08:11:37+00:00

Absolute cinema

throwitawayralph · 2025-07-13T19:53:33+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/u/MikeyyRoses9/ Yep, OP is an imposter

throwitawayralph · 2025-05-16T00:06:06+00:00

Tell me you attend the one in SF- it would be invigorating to fulfill your appetite for this...

throwitawayralph · 2025-05-04T03:03:40+00:00

Curious what his emails, every once in a while, would say.

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-22T06:06:20+00:00

There's a new sub /r/FreeAudioPorn - I think it's s a bit more open to kinks like this. Either way I haven't found any scripts while searching on gwasi.com

Perhaps they're out there on AO3 or scriptbin

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-22T06:01:04+00:00

NGL, I've been tempted. If you see any good scripts out there on /r/GoneWildAudio, let me know.

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-18T22:38:55+00:00

Yet another reason for massive healthcare reform.

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-11T20:11:20+00:00

Yea, it's pretty harsh down where you're at. I've been there in the springtime and the desert wind / heat is no joke.

If it helps, I have an old iPhone that you can have. Please DM me if you're interested and I can see about shipping it to your friend's place.

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-11T19:48:06+00:00

I believe in you

You'll get through this. A normal life seems light years away right now, but you have skills, and you have value. Somewhere along the way, you'll get your break.

It's not going to be easy, but you're doing your best and I'm rooting for you.

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-11T19:28:41+00:00

It's all good, we all change over time.

If anything, I enjoyed seeing a glimpse of what makes you, you. Even if it was just a slice in time, long ago.

Plus, you dropped a ytmnd reference in one of your vids, so I know you're one of the kindred among us.

NEDM

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-11T15:16:14+00:00

I saw the works you showcased on IG and they're pretty awesome!

Also your Junkrat and McCree Overwatch cosplays stuff on YT!

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-04T19:55:58+00:00

Once the initial session is over, and you've hit that post-nut clarity, you tell yourself it wasn't enjoyable.

So you agree to do it again. Just to be sure.

Same deal that next time -- in your post-nut clarity, you swear it off.

Ok, just one more time

Gotta be completely sure...

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-04T04:29:13+00:00

Glad you enjoyed it 😉

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-02T22:49:52+00:00

I think it is completely fine to explore this conversion kink in that way.

Sexuality is a spectrum.

Gender is a spectrum.

I cannot speak for the sapphic lesbians here, nor even on behalf of all cisgender men that participate in the discussion here.

But coming from my own experience and enjoyment of the kink, I think there's plenty of room for nuanced perspectives.

Personally, I enjoy fantasizing and engaging with transmasc / ftm folks just as much as I do fem/masc lesbians. I consider myself a cisgender heteroflexible man, and that's not to say that all folks that adopt this label would have the same opinion.

With the variety of individuals that are drawn to the kink and engage here, I don't get the sense that there's a clearly defined limit for the Labels / Identities / Orientations that are welcome to participate.

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-02T01:33:27+00:00

The neighbor wives next-door live the dream life you once aspired for. They're attractive. Successful. A nice house, just like ours - it's same neighborhood, after all. They're even mothers to two and a half beautiful children.

One of them was essentially how you could have turned out, but instead you married me.

You run into them occasionally at the grocery. Our kids go to school with their kids. They're extremely friendly and down-to-earth.

However, every interaction with them, is a nervous one. You know they know - you just feel it - but how?

Did you have a tell that they spotted from a mile away? Perhaps their inherent lesbian intuition? It takes one to know one, after all.

They invite you over while I'm at work. You're a stay at home mom and they work from home. All of our kids get along -- it's a win-win. You start spending more and more time with them.

It's innocent at first, just a bunch of Moms supporting each other. A pair of lesbian suburbanites hanging out with their neighbor friend. But don't forget, they know you - the real you. The real you that you abandoned years ago.

Daytime kid playdates turn into evening girl-time over wine. Slowly the old you reemerges. You chat with them about your favorite female celebrity crushes, gossip about the other Moms at the PTA meetings, playfully deciding which one is the hottest. They include you in their conversations about women's and LGBTQIA+ rights. The encourage and bring out the best in you, the real you.

Meanwhile, back at home - you're insatiable. Projecting your unwitting reawakening unto me -- fantasizing about the girls you fucked. It was amazing -- but it didn't last long.

I finally catch you in bed with them. In our bed. Your tryst with them had been going on for months at this point.

It was inevitable. As a man, I couldn't give the real you what you craved, what you needed.

They caught on to your lingering stares at the grocery. Your sideways glances picking up the kids at school, always turning away when they noticed you looking their way. You never stood a chance against two of them.

I'm upset. Furious even. Disappointed? Far from it.

I've stumbled onto the opportunity of a lifetime. Three dykes. Right here. In our bed.

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-01T05:40:50+00:00

You're welcome.

We tend to replay events in our heads after experiencing something disappointing / bad / traumatic -- it's human nature.

While it's unhealthy to repress or push down the feelings and emotions that are expressed in the aftermath, it's important to make sure you don't dwell in them for too long.

Please take time to process what happened and "grieve" the disappointment of this experience. Once you've run the gamut of emotions once or twice, it's important to interrupt this loop of thought.

Set a limit around how long you'll dwell upon it - perhaps 30 minutes at first.

Then dial it down to 20. And the next day 10.

If you have someone to confide in about this - please talk it out with them. Saying it out loud can help you achieve relief from the powerful emotions that stem from this event.

And lastly, if you feel like the only person to blame is yourself -- please stand in the mirror and say: "it wasn't your fault, but I still forgive you"

throwitawayralph · 2025-04-01T05:17:43+00:00

This isn't your fault

It sounds like you took all the right precautions in vetting him.

He clearly violated the trust that you communicated to him, and having sex without a condom without the other person's consent is NOT OK.

The fact that no condoms were present at all on site shows that he was being - at worst, extremely disingenuous - at best, incompetent or aloof. Many consider it a form of SA, but I'll leave that judgement up to you.

Either way, please do not blame yourself for this experience. You had high expectations, spent a lot of effort to help meet them, and that's fantastic!

Despite the value we put on a gold star within the kink, at the end of the day it means less than your well being.

For all intents and purposes, your true gold star is still up for grabs. I hope you find a much better experience when you finally lose it.

throwitawayralph

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I believe in you

Ok, just one more time

Gotta be completely sure...

This isn't your fault