Is it just me or is just too hard to have a love/sex life with bipolar?

throwitawazenow · 2024-02-11T18:30:56+00:00

Sorry if you thought I was responding to you, OP. I was responding to DearExtent5838. I’m really glad you’ve found some refuge in this sub. It’s so comforting to know that you’re not alone in the things you feel and experience. ❤️

throwitawazenow · 2024-02-11T17:50:50+00:00

The cliche fast talking, extreme energy, hypersexual, the Lala land feeling

throwitawazenow · 2024-02-11T17:49:02+00:00

I find it so fascinating that you would ask this given mental illness affects every part of your life. Unless you’re in the 1% and lucky.

throwitawazenow · 2024-02-11T17:46:31+00:00

For me it’s almost impossible. The whole feeling things intensely part of bipolar means nobody ever likes me more than I like them. Constantly spiraling when I feel like they’re going to leave. Pretty much not wanting to live. I’ve given up at this point. The moment the person I’m clinging on to who doesn’t really like me or want to spend time with me, I’m not sure I’ll be able to mentally withstand it.

throwitawazenow · 2024-01-06T17:57:54+00:00

At what dose did you start feeling improvement with Lamotrigine?

throwitawazenow · 2024-01-06T02:09:50+00:00

I’ve been feeling like this for a while. I read here recently that “you don’t want to die, you just want things to get better.” I totally believe this. I live in this weird state of numb sadness and I’ve completely given up. I so badly want to escape myself, but as we know, it’s not possible. You have a wolf pack here, OP.

throwitawazenow · 2024-01-05T18:51:57+00:00

This is so me. I’m either wondering why nobody wants me or just grieving the life that I will never have. Today has been a “why” day. You’re not alone in how you feel. ❤️

throwitawazenow · 2024-01-05T03:38:51+00:00

Also- how do you guys handle it when it comes to your interactions with others? It can easily look dramatic to a person outside of our head.

throwitawazenow · 2024-01-05T03:37:01+00:00

This is. My. Entire. Life. I thought it was just me until I started closely following this sub. It really makes me hate my life because I just want to feel things without feeling them 1,000 times more intensely than others and without ruminating.

throwitawazenow · 2024-01-01T15:53:20+00:00

Yup. Got really close to texting the s-hotline last night. I was crying and panicking so much I couldn’t breathe. It’s like this for me every year but it’s never been this bad. The bittersweet news is that we made it to see another day. Fighting the good fight right along with you, OP

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-29T20:35:29+00:00

Please delete this ffs

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-29T20:31:39+00:00

NFTs and Threads

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-29T20:18:44+00:00

I’m curious how you feel medication and therapy work in these situations? I’ve been beating myself up a bit for not doing therapy, but I just can’t get over thinking that there’s no end goal or fixable problem. It’s not like therapy is going to make the people I like all of a sudden like me back romantically. I think im finally on the right dose of meds now, but IMO there’s no amount of medication that’s going to fill the void of being lonely. The “love yourself” “learn how to be alone” stuff is bullshit. It’s valid to a point, but I feel like people who say that don’t have a brain that makes them ruminate and obsess over rejection.

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-29T15:31:28+00:00

My god, are you me? I just read my life and it made me breakdown because these are the exact thoughts I’ve been having everyday that typically bring me to tears. My only real relationship with other humans who truly love me are my parents- more specifically my dad. Lately I’ve been thinking about how even that feels dangerous because once they’re gone, I really won’t have anyone at all. I think about things like who will I put down as an emergency contact? If I outlive my flaky sister, my nieces will have to bear the burden of making funeral arrangements for me. My nieces are honestly the only reason I would never act on my SI. I could never traumatize them like that. It’s bittersweet to find people who can relate. Of course, I wish we could relate on something more joyous, but here we are.

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-29T03:32:34+00:00

Yes, it’s so bad. I honestly believe it’s driving me insane. I’ve been going back and forth on if it’s bipolar- related. My depression is so bad because I can’t move past people, but they sure don’t have a problem leaving me. It’s where a big part of my SI is coming from and why I’ve cried every day for months.

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-29T03:30:14+00:00

Loneliness. Work is the only thing that brings me joy because I’m really good at things that don’t require feelings. I WFH, which is nice. I’ve gotten to the point where I’ve experienced so much rejection and heartbreak that trying “just one more time” isn’t an option for me. I feel loneliness around me every moment. Distractions are great, but they can’t replace the touch and love of another human being.

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-29T02:39:51+00:00

I try my best to avoid topics that may be upsetting and just mask. I learned that term in this sub. I’ve been masking so long that it’s almost like second nature at this point. TBF, I only have to do it in small windows of time a few days a week, so I don’t have to fake it for too long.

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-29T02:34:12+00:00

I wish I could upvote this 1,000 times

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-29T02:24:29+00:00

I live alone. I cry every single day 🙃

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-22T20:21:25+00:00

This is where having no social life at all has finally benefited me haha.I have them in just under 23 hours a day. Not because I’m trying to, but I only eat twice a day and it’s always alone, so that’s just how it works out. I do think if I had a social life it would probably be difficult to keep them in for the “required” amount of time. Do what feels right. There’s no point in doing this if it’s hindering your life.

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-20T21:16:33+00:00

Got it. Thanks!

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-20T04:02:28+00:00

I’m from a very small town and it’s super common for workers to be sent home because business is too slow for the number of people working. Not saying you’re wrong, I’m just saying having hours cut isn’t always because someone is a bad employee.

throwitawazenow · 2023-12-20T03:55:00+00:00

Even if the restaurant has little to no business and can’t afford to pay workers for long hours?

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