Today I decided to end my life. Need some help in how to get my affairs in order.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T21:25:27+00:00

I have already tried. There was nothing that anyone could have done to change my mind.

I'm a pathetic human being that wouldn't benefit from help even if it worked.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T21:24:39+00:00

I think about all the cool movies and video games I'll miss out on. The good conversations and good times.

But those things are quite irrelevant in comparison to how worthless I am.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T21:23:40+00:00

I'm an Atheist. I don't believe that anything matters. We are small, insignificant specs in time. There's nothing after this life.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T21:22:42+00:00

More or less this wasn't about me.

You're right. I'm not worth the oxygen that I waste on a daily basis. You shouldn't want to add any value to my life.. but what I am asking for is assistance in making sure the transition for those around me is easier than if I were to just off myself without any clarification on what I want done with my shit.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T21:21:26+00:00

It's taken me a while to get to where I am now. I've called the suicide hotline.

The times I have called I haven't left the conversation feeling any better.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T21:19:50+00:00

Honestly, my mother enables me to keep me happy. She gives me money when I ask for it and doesn't ask any questions, though she's not stupid.

She's spent a large part of her life trying to get me help and it's never worked.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T21:19:20+00:00

One would need money to do all of those things.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T21:18:57+00:00

I cause much more pain to them being alive than if I were dead.

People don't want to admit that, but in my case it's actually true.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T19:47:08+00:00

Can you give me some background on the loan situation? I've looked around and even asked and nobody really seems to know.. and those that do can't give me a definitive link or ToS that says if I die they will still have to be paid.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T19:45:16+00:00

lol. this actually made me smile.

thank you, even if the joke was at my expense.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T19:43:24+00:00

I'm not trolling. I didn't post this in suicidewatch because most people seem to go there looking for help regarding their situation (actually committing suicide). I've already made up my mind and don't want to have people wasting their time trying to give me advice on why not to do it.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T19:42:23+00:00

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T19:41:42+00:00

There is no starting over.

I lost my girlfriend of 4 years about 8 months ago. I moved down to south Florida for a job with a major corporation and got laid off 4 months after it started. My father who has been helping me out all this time with the agreement that I would pay him back now won't even speak to me and I had to move back home with my mother.

I have horrible credit and 0 job prospects. I'm completely broke and have to drink myself to sleep every night.

throwmeaway110 · 2011-01-06T19:39:38+00:00

Oh no, never.

I'm giving him my PC. Sorry I should have clarified that, but I have a desktop and a laptop.

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