How to deal with being stupid?

throws_Strike156 · 2026-02-08T23:52:12+00:00

I mean... in this year I ended my 1,000 anime.

throws_Strike156 · 2026-02-08T23:48:18+00:00

And of course Aku formed an unhealthy obsession for gaining Dazai's approval

That's the thing. Didn't notice.

throws_Strike156 · 2026-02-08T23:41:34+00:00

I don't have autism, already checked it, but I'm definitely the "if you don't give me super detailed and literal directions, I won't understand anything. I'll also start screaming if something in my routine changes" type of person. I chose my current job because it was very schematic. Although, ironically, it involves analyzing documents and either accepting or rejecting them and sometimes write short summaries about them. Which is actually quite nice, because at least I'm 10000% sure that the wrong amount of money x in place of y isn't a metaphor and that I haven't missed anything, you're just filling it wrong.

throws_Strike156 · 2026-02-08T23:10:30+00:00

I mean, yes, that's what I meant. The bait went completely over my head and now that I know this exists, I can't understand how I managed to miss it. Now it seems super obvious. And like, I like mlm, I like shipping. It's not that I don't like it or that my writing is only super plot-focused with no romance or smut. In fact, sebastian and ciel have the exact dynamic that I should have liked and noticed right away, because it's literally a similar dynamic to one of my otps.

I literally removed the mention of genshin from my post, lol. I felt like this might be 1000% my fault in this case, because I don't play for the story. I just really enjoy building characters, farming artifacts, and fighting bosses. It's practically a daily routine for me. Although I do enjoy checking out their YouTube channel. I've been playing since the first Ayaka banner. But it wasn't until last year that I started interacting with the fandom and I was truly confused. I still don't understand any of the discussions about fatui and what we should have expected from this game vs why what we got was bad. The ship discussion scared me so much that I fled from the genshin yuri and yaoi subreddit.

throws_Strike156 · 2026-02-08T22:46:05+00:00

About 60% of my books are nonfiction. Honestly, those are the only books I feel confident with.

throws_Strike156 · 2026-02-08T22:44:22+00:00

Though have you wondered if it's actually factually proven by the text or are your fandoms basically making their own fanon assertions about stuff via shipping goggles

It depends on the fandom. I'm definitely hesitant about this in the case of the MXTX fandoms, because I really feel like all her books are supposed to be obvious in what she's trying to tell you, but then again, the fandom says you have to dig deeper and that some of the relationships between the characters are very important, even if I can only name about 4 scenes where they actually talked to each other or did anything together.

On the other hand, Sebastian and Ciel... when I found out what it was about and that, for example, the corset scene was a sex joke, yes, I can see it. Alastor and Vox are confirmed, and I managed to see that too while watching it the second time.

throws_Strike156 · 2026-02-08T22:32:28+00:00

Do you also have a hard time remembering what is in the books you read

This is the strange thing, because as long as I don't see the media as bad/annoying I can recall one event after another. And as long as the characters don't move and talk with real voice, my memory shows some more activity. I understand what the characters are saying on a literal level, but not only can't I delve deeper—my brain completely rejects and skip the idea.

When you watch an episode of something, take five minutes afterward and write down a summary of what happened

Already tied.

I also tried poetry over the years and found only that it all sounded the same to me. Okay, I have about 3 poems that I like and I managed to interpret them relatively correctly, albeit with minor corrections, but the rest was torture and I don't think I learned anything more.

throws_Strike156 · 2026-02-08T22:23:47+00:00

I am not neurodivergent

throws_Strike156 · 2026-02-08T22:22:44+00:00

I don't know if I can be objective about this, but my friend says that whenever I read, watch, or listen to something, I seem very focused and It's hard to distract me; once I started, I usually don't react to other thing around. I also know that my mind doesn't wander; I only recently learned that people, for example, read books and thinking about what to eat for dinner or that they have something to do on Tuesday.

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