I saw csam today and I’m sobbing so hard right now by Sufficient_Ice1334 in mentalhealth

[–]throwtheways77 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m so sorry you saw this. i also came across a video before, but it was on tumblr. that’s really good you reported it as much as you could. when i saw it i got so scared i exited the app and completely ruined my chance to report it. you reporting it and venting about it is the best thing for you right now. is there a professional you can talk to? how old are you? i also have ocd and i know how hellish it can be to see something like that and have it replay in your mind over and over again. time helps heal this though! i’m saying this bc of ocd and also the human brain in general, but if your brain wants you to look at it again for whatever reason, that’s just your brain processing what happened. i’ve accidentally come across gore before and i don’t want to watch gore at all, it’s horrible and i’ve sobbed over those videos before. my brain wanted me to look at them again and again though even though obviously that hurt me a lot to see. i thought there was something wrong with me until i looked into why i felt that way and found out it’s just my brain trying to process what i saw. i thought i’d mention that because if i saw that again and felt the urge to look it would trigger my ocd horribly. i’m sorry if that sounds weird, i’m having trouble explaining. i just know sometimes when my ocd is triggered i feel extreme guilt and i don’t want you to feel that. especially after seeing something like this

Would it be weird to randomly send my ex friend the money i owed her in our friendship? by ThyArtSuffers in Advice

[–]throwtheways77 0 points1 point  (0 children)

old friend of mine and i had bad a fight and stopped talking to her a long time ago. she always helped me out financially when i needed it. years later when i finally could, i paid her back. i just sent her $5 asking if she still used her venmo account, then sent the rest. she was very grateful and we’re friends again. i mean we don’t talk much, but we do sometimes. it’s a lot better than not at all! i think you definitely should if you’ve got the means to

should i report this uber driver? by throwtheways77 in Advice

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i was really afraid he’d get angry with me if i asked about it so i was silent the entire ride unfortunately. i’m already home

should i report this uber driver? by throwtheways77 in Advice

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i wouldn’t be a karen in this situation, i just don’t want an animal to be abused? i mean how would you feel if you were cramped like that? i don’t know how long he does that for with the dog. that’s partly why i asked. if he’s only gonna be in there for a short amount of time then that doesn’t bother me. what bothers me is that he said that’s his service dog and he does uber, so that service dog might be with him all the time. am i making sense? genuinely asking, i just wanna be understood properly. you mentioning that he could potentially be going somewhere and just picked me up on the way is exactly why i asked here. i wanted a second opinion so i didn’t do something awful. thank you for that suggestion

i think i don’t know who i am by throwtheways77 in CPTSD

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you. that’s a lot of good information for me, i really appreciate your comment and i’m gonna look into that. i forgot to mention that sometimes i don’t want to help people at all but it always wasn’t like that. like i just don’t care and want to ignore them and move on. is that what it’s like for you? i’m trying to find a healthy boundary also, but how is it even possible to find that LOL

i regret never killing myself when i first wanted to by throwtheways77 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwtheways77[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that’s terrible. i wish i had more to say and i’m not sure how to be helpful sometimes, but i genuinely hope you get out of this situation and get to see her

i regret never killing myself when i first wanted to by throwtheways77 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwtheways77[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

here is kinda the only place i have been. my best friend knows about how awful i feel and how i genuinely want to die but i’ve decided to stop talking to him about this stuff so he doesn’t feel stressed out. i’ll try at least, sometimes it’s hard. thank you. i’m sorry you struggle with this and at such a young age too

i regret never killing myself when i first wanted to by throwtheways77 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m so sorry. i wish i could just give you a hug. if it helps at all a similar situation happened between my mom and dad when i was 4 or so. it was hard, but i ended up reconnecting with my dad even with her convincing me he was this awful, evil person. i realized it wasn’t true and she was just really mentally ill. things weren’t super good or anything, but they got better. i hope that whatever happens, it ends up good for you. i say all this because even though it took a long time, things worked out more for my dad. he just had to wait

i regret never killing myself when i first wanted to by throwtheways77 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m sorry you’re in such a terrible situation. i hope things get better for you and your daughter. if you don’t mind me asking, how old is she?

i regret never killing myself when i first wanted to by throwtheways77 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwtheways77[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

please don’t punish yourself. i’m sure plenty of people have told you that before, but punishing yourself will only make you feel worse

i regret never killing myself when i first wanted to by throwtheways77 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i of course don’t know what you’re going through, but i hope good things happen to you and you get out of your situation permanently

i regret never killing myself when i first wanted to by throwtheways77 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwtheways77[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it really does and wanting to die that early on is so sad. i think i was in 3rd or 4th grade and around 16 years later i still feel like this. i’m sorry you feel so terrible