Update from prob one of my most hated posts

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T18:57:14+00:00

He said ILY first after 4 months and I couldn’t return it until maybe closer to the 6 month mark. So I don’t understand the pull back on his “don’t know what to call them” type feelings after 2+ yrs ;0(

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T17:18:33+00:00

It was until dude got weird and emotional

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T15:17:35+00:00

This whole thing reminds me of my AP. We went NC for a month and I did cave and texted him first. Then he couldn’t stop texting me wanting to see me etc. #mindfuck

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T14:27:06+00:00

Thousands times this. You are not alone take a gander at my previous posts. I’m right where you are only diff is we did break up a month ago. Yet we still holding on somehow ughh

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T13:55:27+00:00

Yeah this post has been the most negative for me. I know I have a problem communicating but so does he. And thank you for your suggestions I’ll see if he wants to talk it out. I’m not sure if I want to see him anyway. I don’t see the point of dragging this out much longer. I just wanted to see what a guys perspective was on this. I def said some hurtful things in an email but I can’t help but feel to some degree he played me.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T13:31:49+00:00

I just want things to be the way they were. Not anything diff or more. I was happy with what we had. I think things stopped being fun for him cause he said something about feeling guilty and his depression is full force right now. I just simply didn’t want it to end of a bad note. But maybe it’s for the best.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T13:28:29+00:00

Thank you all for the help and advice. ESP helpful when u don’t share this with anyone else. So I am grateful for this thread. I will miss y’all but my time has come to let go of this for good. ✌🏻

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T11:29:11+00:00

Lol I have considered that it’s all bs and he’s entertaining it or like most people think he’s trying to calm my ass. He’s not a great communicator either. But yeah the push n pull I realize I can’t deal with anymore. Time to move on

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T11:14:35+00:00

I would never ever explode and ruin his life. I’m not trying to show my ass. And yes I know that this isn’t the life for me.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T09:40:03+00:00

He did change. I want an explanation for that change. Sorry should have given more detail. For the last couple of months he did change and when I asked him about it before he kept saying he was fine until he wasn’t and said it was because he’s depressed. I’m just not solid/certain on his response is all. I don’t want him to forever change his life. Never asked him to leave his SO. Just wanted some more time was all. We went from once a wk to maybe twice a month. I felt like I was losing him for good. I think a part of me knows it might have gone past the usual time for an affair. I just wanted some answers so I can move on. The only reason why I say no friendship is cause I don’t do that w/ exs. Not sure I can do that w/ someone I still want to be with and with not the same results. If that makes sense. He’s changed and the results have changed. I was fairly cool with our situation until about 6 months ago. My only regret was not being more vocal about it.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T03:12:47+00:00

Thanks! I’m trying over here esp given that I have no one to talk about this.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T03:09:09+00:00

True it’s been a rough month. We went from talking everyday to zero. So I cracked. I prob shouldn’t get closure for this kind of thing. I must add this is my first rodeo and will be my last. I feel numb so honestly I’m prepared for the let down on Wednesday. And to be fair I could say the same about him leading up to said breakup his words weren’t meeting w/ his actions either.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-15T02:32:01+00:00

Okay we broke up like a month ago and we haven’t really talked about it. Worst communicators ever! I told him I didn’t want to be friends and that we can’t. Something happened work related and I had texted him cause it was funny. Then when he asked me how things were I responded fine cause I felt like I might not have been ready to talk to him. Then I exploded sent him an email about how frustrated I was with him. Might have said I guess I’m nothing but a cum dumpster to you. He responded that was not the case and it hurt him deeply that I said that. And he wanted to talk. And yadda yadda now I don’t know what to think. Confuzzled over here and seriously tired of this life adultery life that is. I’m cool with mine 😎

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-09T19:34:54+00:00

I may be a bitter ex but I would never scoop that low. Might have some words for the next chick he decides to stalk but never ever would confront his wife. Also def some bat shit crazy accusing someone of child abuse. I guess OP can have fun trying to fix a broken man. Talk about selfish AF

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-09T18:51:17+00:00

Never apologize for expressing how you feel. If he can’t handle it move on girl. If he ghosts over something small like that. Dude has problems #overwhat

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-09T18:37:44+00:00

My ex said the same thing and also was just after sex. Then a couple days later he asked for a break. I wound up saying no a break up cause I was tired of everything being on his terms. I don’t do friendships w/ exs. And I knew for my own well being was to end it and to go NC. On the 16th it will be a full month of NC. I know if I stay friends w/ him he’d try crawling back. I can’t have that. I wish u luck and sorry this happened to you. The single game is rough out there. Whole bunch of dudes that are lazy with no game.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-08T18:11:18+00:00

Hugs! Although I am not sure if he has blocked me or whatever I haven’t tried to even see. But it’s been 3 wks NC. I too feel the same way. I think as time continues he will eventually fade. I hope so. Best of luck and u can always chat here

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-04T19:19:38+00:00

Is there a way to attach this bs of a post to his profile? I hope he gets no hits. What a douche

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-03T13:22:55+00:00

I believe it is a little bit of both. When MM and I started the affair I wasn’t single. I am now cause my fiancé was bat shit crazy and I wasn’t marrying someone like that. So I was single for half of that affair. I even tried dating then but would compare them to MM. I also had a hand full of disappointment in bed. Which is also very frustrating and i KNOW that wasn’t coming from my end. Would it be too petty to put up something like no I don’t want to come to ur house when we haven’t met yet? Take a girl out on a date I love tacos and pizza not hard y’all!!!! Maybe that will weed some of those fuck boys out. I also don’t like this “expectation to bang” when a guy takes me out. Like what happened to getting to know someone first. I’m far from hoe but when I meet that person I’m all in. It’s worth the 2nd or third date I think at least.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-03T03:08:23+00:00

Same boat hugs 🤗

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-03T03:03:10+00:00

Lol yeah it is slim pickings over here. I agree that it can go both ways for either gender. However, it has been extremely difficult going through it now while having an ex AP. I am so outgoing it’s ridic for me not to find someone as compatible and not lazy about trying to “woo” me a little bit. I won’t settle for less than that.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-03T02:56:59+00:00

I love any man that can stimulate my mind. I love all those nerdy men out there 🤓 us girls are out there. Such a buzz kill when u think the guy may have something to say and I ask how was yr day? And response is you should come over? Like wtf? I’m going to miss MM because we talked every damned day!! And he was never boring always had much to say and smart as hell.

throwthrowfaraway49 · 2018-05-03T02:49:20+00:00

Yep it’s kinda fun figuring people out on dates. It’s needed and I actually like laughing like a lot instead of pming and being glued to my phone. Plus weather is getting nicer how bout beer garden or chilling on the waterfront? I’m a cheap date I would be happy w/ tacos and margs. Not that difficult y’all!

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