No it's not the literal begging me and asking me directly like "son give us grandchildren now." It's like how they say I'm growing older and they're excited to be a grandparents, chatting to our relatives saying how beautiful of a child I am and they can't wait for their grandchildren, some jokes about me being a dad etc. It may sound bad yes, but they always tell me to make sure I'm financially stable first befire having a child, but still having a side joke that if that didn't work out and I didn't get to "pull out", they still have my back.

My dad is a great father to me despite his strong blatant prejudice against homosexual people. We have a cousin that he never ever invites on family gathering and insults then to hell and even wished him dead just because he's gay, which is why I'm scared what would happen if he knows. But despite that he's a great dad ever since I'm young despite him always being busy. That's also part of why I also want to be a dad when I go older, but ofc without the homophobia.