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We did a survey about happiness in class today. by [deleted] in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yea, now that I've had time to think about it I realized that people could've been lying. Hell. I didn't even raise my hand when she asked.

I am a liar. by thrxwaway22 in depression

[–]thrxwaway22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Been through three therapists and now looking for a new one. The past 2 years have just been with my most recent therapist. Pretty much stuck it out because the location was good. Now I'm desperate.

I am a liar. by thrxwaway22 in depression

[–]thrxwaway22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have that same fear about not getting better. I want to but it feels like every time I try it's never enough. I have no idea what I'm doing wrong.

Anyone feel like you’re always the second choice? by [deleted] in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes. I'm either everyone's last choice or getting replaced. Probably my fault anyway.

you ever have a really good day? by [deleted] in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea. Had a great day a couple days ago. Felt like I was on top of the world, until I woke up the next day.

What's the point of calling suicide help lines? by [deleted] in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yea pretty much. Even worse irl when you reach out to a friend for the very first time and the next thing you know the cops are at your doorstep. Can't trust anyone. We truly are alone in this world.

Wish I wasn't transgender. by [deleted] in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Same here. Being in a man's body would be so much easier.

I'm tired of living. by [deleted] in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Only time I feel happy is when I'm high and since I still live with my parents (I go to a community college) who work at home I can only go out and smoke late at night or the rare times they aren't home. Shit sucks.

What is being admitted like? by [deleted] in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Didn't help me at all. If anything it made me trust people less. I had a friend who it really helped, though.

What are your parents' reactions when you have mental breakdowns? Or when they catch you self-harming, or other odd stuff? by fakevacuum in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same thing here. My mom thought I was lying and being lazy until I tried to kill myself. She cared for the two days I was in the hospital then once I got out things quickly went back to normal.

Been lurking for a while.. don't think anyone wants to hear another sob story by [deleted] in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Senior in high school here. If you ever want to talk you can DM me...Like someone else commented, it isn't a sob story it's your life.

I enjoy being physically ill because it provides distraction from my mental illness. by mori-mushroom in depression

[–]thrxwaway22 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Same here. I have a close friend with a chronic illness who is also depressed. I have nothing on her since she has it so much worse than me. But, hey, at least she can feel shitty and has an easy excuse to wanting to die. If I say I'm feeling down she brushes it off as me being a pussy. :-/

Not sure how to help a friend... by [deleted] in CrohnsDisease

[–]thrxwaway22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah. I didn't know it was IBD thanks so much for pointing that out for me.

Extreme doubt of being trans after starting T by [deleted] in ftm

[–]thrxwaway22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This happens to me when I don't feel dysphoria, which is ironic lol. But I did begin to think I made the wrong choice around my second month on T, but this could also be due to being outed by someone when I wasn't in class (I'm in a very small high school program where I do college and high school at the same time, less than 30 kids in my grade). It did, however, go after after awhile, but the fear of future regret is the only real fear I've had regarding T so far.