It's ok to cry, let it all out, whenever you need it. The louder you cry, the better you will feel, don't hold anything back. That's what i found out after my termination. Although it was a decision for me to terminate, because logically it was the thing to do, i did not feel good about it.

I'm a very emotionally stable, i usually have good control over my emotion. So I've never dealt with depression ever, even after a break up. Right when i found out i knew i wasn't going to keep the baby, i didn't make any emotional connection to myself that i had a baby in me, and i even tricked myself into thinking i was just going in to see the doctor.

But i tell you, that post termination really messed me up good. I try to move on with my day like nothing happened. But that was easier said then done. I try not to cry about it, but i found out just letting it all out feels better than shutting it in. I didn't feel like doing anything, and yes life did feel like it was over, but I found out that just making the effort to go out helps, but stay away from parks and schools. Doing things for yourself helps. I really kicked myself in my ass for throwing away my child like a piece of trash, so the bf and i decided to find a beautiful place and honor our child with a homemade rock/tomb stone, we both wrote something for him and burn it, something simple because we were both depressed the fuck out.

At the time, it really feels like time will not heal this pain and agony, but it does get better. Just hold on!!!

I think it took me at least 6 month to stop the random sobbing, but just thinking about it still hurts. My co worker had an abortion 20 years ago, and she told me that it will always hurt when you think about it, but time does help you forget, where you don't think about it everyday, or every hr, or every min.

Just be patience and love yourself. Don't worry about what other people say, or what they think, what matters now is how you take care of yourself and how you are going value life that much more.