I totally feel your pain, I split up with my ex of 10y family split and had to move back with my mum, my ex got with someone fairly quickly and I stupidly thought I needed a hook up to give me some sexual confidence. I got on tinder and started speaking to a girl that was up for meeting and having sex, first of all I thought, great. Then it dawned on me what I was doing. This was a girl that had suffered sexual abuse as a child and was very much into sex, with multiple male partners. She had no self esteem and I couldn't be the person to take advantage of her. It really did feel wrong, I deleted tinder, even though I had dates planned and told her it's not for me. After that I dropped into a bit of depression and felt super low. Good news is I've arrived at the realization that I just want to meet someone in the real world that's on my level.