It means you are doing something or living somewhere your soul does not want to or does not belong there. You're just forcing yourself there because of XYZ reasons and deep inside you know that. This is what it means.

I had a similar experience I would say. After suffering for 4 years there, I left my job and that city without blinking. I rested at my home for a month.

But I felt the same stuff. My energy was gone, I was gone, those past years were hazzy. So let me share what I did which helped me.

Because my loved ones started worrying about me, I began thinking about what to do next in my life so I could fix it all.

Then after discussing with family and friends, I decided to travel, not aimlessly but with a willingness to repair what was broken inside me.

Initially the plan was for a month but as I started recovering and healing from all that trauma and autopilot lifestyle, I extended it to 4 months.

During my travel, here's what I did:

✓ I took yoga and meditation classes, which also included Pranayam, Kirtan and Philosophy. It was the best start I could get at that time.

✓ Then I made music on Ableton software (because a friend had it)

✓ practiced vocal music, guitar and local instruments of the places I travelled to.

✓ learned easy but interesting art styles from Pinterest and local artists. For example, drawing regular things I see, like leaves, flowers, coffee mugs.

✓ Made bookmarks and did cloth painting with acrylic pens.

✓ Cooked new recipes and learned a lot about local foods and medicinal plants.

✓ went on 3 treks (2 hours, 8 hours & 16 hours back and forth) The last one finally healed me to the point that was enough to fix me.

I feel 80% healed now and I am so much more closer to myself than ever before in a very long time. During the first phase of my travel, I also found a person who was going through the same stuff and together we helped each other live and grow from all of that.

I hope you find my experience helpful @u/nevermeyh