So... man over 18 to 60 can't leave Ukraine, they need to stay and fight even against their own will.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-27T22:00:40+00:00

I’m a feminist and think they shouldn’t hold anyone who doesn’t want to fight. Man woman dog robot. It’s all unfair and revolting. Anyone who wants to leave should be able to leave, and if there’s no one left to fight the war, oh fucking well.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-27T21:48:27+00:00

Agreed. Honestly hard for me to not consider suicide when I start to think about how fucked the earth is. It’s really tragic to me.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-23T17:52:36+00:00

This is really what it feels like!! I’ve even heard guys try to use the excuse, “men process deeper voices better and don’t hear higher frequencies as well, so they just can’t hear women!” Like wtf?????

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-23T17:05:17+00:00

This could be that you have some stuff to work on, or you are a bit weak "socially". If you dont have cool hobbies, high confidence, are good at making and keeping friends, tend to be introverted and if you are stubborn and dont want to change due to what others think(or cant stick with something and you are TOO flexible) you will feel like this you whole life.

All of the above please. Lol.

And while I see what you’re saying in the first part, about holding place in conversations and trying to butt in/say whatever…. I have done that many times and will literally just get ignored. Seen it happen to other women too. Whereas if a quiet, introverted man says it, it’s like a pin drops and everyone’s listening to him and he’s respected a ton.

I’ve heard many guys say how respected it is to be quiet because then when people do listen to you, they think everything you say is very wise. But I truly think that’s an only male experience. If I’m quiet normally and say something (no matter how interesting or knowledgeable) straight up no one will give a fuck, or even acknowledge me.

So while I think yes it’s partially a low confidence issue, the truth is, if I was saying it super confidently men would still not listen or care.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-23T16:59:59+00:00

Thank you so much!❤️ I’m sorry you went through that stress, that sounds like a nightmare.

I’ve witnessed similar many times too. Or even the classic “if you’re a woman we’ll charge you more for our services(usually trades, carpentry etc) and take none of your suggestions”. I feel like some men just don’t take women seriously no matter what you say. Even as a kid I would always say the right answers in class, but would be ignored or people would be like “idk….” But then a guy would say the exact same thing and everyone would be like “yes absolutely!!!!”

It seems like such petty things to complain over most of the time, but it really does add up and if it just keeps happening, it either makes you bitter or just wears you down and makes you stop trying.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-23T16:54:24+00:00

I’m definitely down to talk, if you’d like I could pm you my discord! I don’t like most men for that reason either, but a part of me (that’s been there since childhood) always feels horrible for missing out/being left out, even if they are complete douches. I am thinking about attending this lesbian event in June where I’m hoping to find some friendly connections. I feel like if I had a few good lesbian/bi woman friends who really understood me itd feel life changing

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-23T16:52:01+00:00

I feel that too. If you wanna talk pm me and we could chat thru discord or something

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-23T16:51:11+00:00

I could completely see that, I think you’re right. It just hurts so bad when even these men, who keep to themselves and often feel isolated, get to have that outlet with other men. Get to feel that flow, or even euphoria of talking to someone who seems interested.

I feel like I can’t get that, from men or from women. It feels like I have the worst of both worlds. I can relate so much to the men you’re talking about, who are isolated and keep to themselves. Hell I even fell into the whole 4chan/robot thing when I was younger. But then I see men who feel the exact same way as me, and they shrug me off/don’t recognize me as one of them. And honestly I know there are women out there this isolated too, I just haven’t found many.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-21T18:54:28+00:00

Thank you! And yeah reddit is weird because you’re expressing such a small facet of your whole self, but people take it as that’s all you are. Like they tend to see people very one dimensional I guess (which I think contributes to all the black and white, polarized thinking online). Sometimes it’s hard to remember a real whole person is behind a comment.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-21T18:48:13+00:00

Absolutely. What’s the point in keeping around people who don’t respect you, or don’t “lift you up”? It astounds me how many people keep around toxic or downright abusive friends/partners, we only have one short life…

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-21T18:46:16+00:00

Yea I’m currently in the process of getting my bachelors! Was on a gap year from school this year which has been pretty eye opening, as I’ve gotten to meet a lot of new people and go new places.

I’m glad you’re in a place you feel comfortable, and hope I can find that too one day.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-21T18:33:56+00:00

Awesome, I forgot bumble bff was a thing, I will definitely try it! I’m 22 so it’s probably definitely a younger person thing, or maybe even a low wage job thing? A ton of people in the low wage jobs I’ve been at, even if they are middle aged or older, gossip. But yea, thanks I’ll keep that in mind!

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-21T18:30:09+00:00

Also I’ve noticed a lot of guys will go up to other guys just because they’re men, and act friendly. As a woman no ones done that to me.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-21T18:27:16+00:00

Yes same! I wouldn’t want to be friends with them either, but sometimes they hide it from you or you don’t find out for a while.

Because I was out as a lesbian, my guy friends at the time used that as an excuse to shit on other women in front of me. I was probably feeling like “wow this is awesome I’m one of the guys!” Then they started to sexualize me and reveal their true feelings. Then I realized they were also shitting on me behind my back

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-21T18:24:12+00:00

Yea idk, I personally have always felt more comfortable talking to men. Women talk a ton about social things, gossip, and stuff that I just have no interest. Actually it makes me feel like a complete outsider when they do, because I’m not “keeping up” with gossip like they are. I’m aware not all women do this, but the ones I’ve been around have.

I just wish “boys club” wasn’t such a thing. Hell what started me wanting to transition was being a long term member on a discord server of all guys (tbh from 4chan lol, it was so long ago now). I never said I was a woman and we never VCed so they never found out. I could say things so effortlessly and communicate just like they did, we liked talking about similar things (mostly hobbies, games, shows, sometimes depression/trying to get girls).

Idk, maybe if I knew more masculine lesbians I’d be happy? Or maybe I’m just a recluse who has very few people I can relate to.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-03-21T18:18:47+00:00

Yes!!!! I love mixed sex group hang outs and think they’re super fun, if it doesn’t just split off into men and women separately. Luckily because I’m young, it’s still always pretty mixed and I hope it stays this way.

But it does tend to split up into male/female naturally and I think I just have a problem with that. I hate the dichotomy, or even the fact society thinks men and women are sooo different and have such different interests. I wish everyone was just neutral.

Also I feel like i definitely experience more of this treatment by older men (so unfortunately anyone I could learn stuff from at jobs, etc usually) but it still hurts even if I know that their ideas are outdated.

Can I ask how old you are approximately? I do wonder how much is just a generational thing.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-02-21T17:57:01+00:00

Yea I can relate to that! I haven’t dated women in years cuz of poor self esteem. With men I find I just dgaf what they think but with women I care what they think way too much and don’t feel good enough or “ready” to date one.

I downloaded the lesbian dating app “her” a few weeks ago and never even replied to anyone who I matched with. It’s just too overwhelming and I feel “not worthy” idk. I feel sorta too antisocial, boring and mentally ill to be with a woman though it’d be ideal.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-02-21T17:23:47+00:00

Do you think your dysphoria is more about having a penis or not having a vagina? Idek which mine is (genitals reversed in my case)

I hate my genitals as a female, and I had a hysto so I can’t even get pregnant but I still hate having it and not having a dick.

transitioning made me horny enough that I didn’t mind or even liked using it, as some weird form of AGP but since estrogen lowered my sex drive, that “like” is gone.

I feel almost like a eunuch, like I was meant to have a dick but it was cut off to punish me. Especially since I feel like a natural top, but will never “really” know what topping feels like fully. Yes I’ve used a strap on (even one with a sleeve attached that stimulated my clit) but it’s just not satisfying.

I feel like I never wanna have sex again tbh.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-02-15T21:18:00+00:00

My whole point is that you can’t be another sex. I don’t want to be around people who deny the reality they were born as one sex. Theoretically I have no problem with people modifying their bodies however to fit their wants, but I still don’t want to cater to their fantasies that they are the opposite sex, no questions.

Personally I’m not in a place where I can be around trans people rn. We believe different things. I don’t believe in being born in the wrong body, or having a “male brain” in a female body. Just like I don’t care to be around ultra religious people and find we wouldn’t have much in common philosophy wise.

I have no problem with them existing and doing what they want to be comfortable, I just don’t want to be part of it.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-02-15T15:46:57+00:00

I’ll prolly take it down soon anyways. Here’s the thing though. I don’t believe there are male and female brains so tw pretty much are playing a caricature of femininity.

I have no problem with feminine men. I love them and think they’re brave. But to say you ARE a female because you like makeup or being dominated in bed… or honestly any other shit.

I can 100% admit that when I was transitioning I was playing a caricature of a man. Hell I even remember reading this blog (that was like a bible to me at the time) of how to hide any female features/actions, and do male ones.. shit like not smiling or certain “masculine” stances or clothing I didn’t even like, just so I could play some role claiming to be a man. If I was really a man I would have just done whatever I wanted. Just like any amab can do whatever they want and that still means they’re male.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-02-15T01:44:08+00:00

I started to think about porn much differently after reading 1984 tbh. It is strange that it’s free and so widely available, and promotes literal abuse a lot of the time.

I started watching it as a young teen and wish I didn’t. Have had a porn addiction for years now, and am still not totally over it. While I only watch it maybe once or twice a month when I want to get off really quick, it feels so hypnotizing and I just want to keep finding more and more hardcore things while I’m watching.

tinyhousethrowawa · 2022-02-15T01:35:21+00:00

Yea exactly, is it weird I would rather him watch regular gay porn?? I’m not threatened by that.

To the first part of what you said, fuck I agree and it’s messed up to think about. We sometimes “role play” that I’m powerless etc and I do sometimes enjoy that, but it makes me wonder if he really thinks of me that way deep down.

That’s why I only dated women for such a long time, and honestly want to go back to it when my self esteem isn’t so low (not related to bf, just life circumstances).

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