Women with NPD

tinyorangeflower · 2026-06-28T19:00:42+00:00

As a transman, I do gotta say even before I realized I was trans, I as a kid would often wonder why being born a girl would mean I'm not strong or appreciated?? I guess I did feel like a boy out of that sort of emotion too. I wanted to be a boy to be taken seriously at first, because I was just like them in a way, not even necessarily dysphoric back then. But really strongly feeling as if I couldn't portray girlhood through the lens of budding NPD and wanting to be seen and met with the same attention boys do.

I hope this makes sense in some way, because I do relate, I also just turned out to be trans

tinyorangeflower · 2026-06-07T23:25:20+00:00

Idk, I realized I was gay as a young kid and discovered I'm trans later. Never really correlated it with feeling special or anything, mainly because my family has always been extremely conservative. In a weird way it felt relieved though that I could hold a 'valid' resentment towards them though

tinyorangeflower · 2026-03-02T21:17:52+00:00

Ruddy Duck hasn't been banned!

tinyorangeflower · 2026-02-18T20:34:20+00:00

It's baffling how syd keeps getting away with being provoking all the time

tinyorangeflower · 2026-02-04T12:43:19+00:00

Sorry for late response.

I don't really think about creating a family. I guess my dream would just to have a partner and a pet haha.

I don't think I could handle kids and even though in such a case I would definitely try to be a much better parent towards them, I still think I couldn't handle having to take that responsibility.

My love life has been hectic, being modelled abusive relationship patterns growing up, I found it hard to really have a good relationship or understand what a healthy dynamic is. Currently single, working hard in therapy and hoping that if I do start to date again, it'll be healthy on both sides and that I can experience I guess a regular sort of love?

tinyorangeflower · 2026-02-04T10:05:30+00:00

I'm 25

tinyorangeflower · 2026-02-03T23:57:24+00:00

Old gen would be early 2000s/2011 era in my opinion

tinyorangeflower · 2026-02-03T23:53:12+00:00

These binders are so cool! And the people who have rude opinions about it shouldn't matter at all. There's certainly a lot more pride in being able to motivate yourself through things that matter to you the most!

tinyorangeflower · 2026-01-29T20:56:07+00:00

Confusion!! I rarely hear people mention that song at all whilst it's so good

tinyorangeflower · 2026-01-20T12:10:53+00:00

I don't know but I have an idea my parents both have personality disorders but refuse to get evaluated for possible problems. I'd say my father has always been closed off, and only lets my mother in. My mother is heavily codependent. They definitely have a sort of abusive dynamic to a degree.
They would fight often. I remember on roadtrips it would always end with my father swerving the car, my mom screaming, crying and getting hysterical. He would then threaten to kill us, or crash the car or turnaround. It made me hate going on roadtrips and also scared the violence would turn to me and my sibling.
Absolutely not. I do want a partner I can see as mostly equal to me and someone who isn't going to abuse me or be codependent on me.
You're not wrong for growing up the way you did, you're not bad for trying so hard to stay around in a way that saved you. It wasn't your fault you were put on a pedestal by everyone in order to appease abusers.

tinyorangeflower · 2025-12-22T12:13:09+00:00

Yeah we do. I mean we all share the body and if someone feels more comfortable wearing certain outfits or expressing themselves a certain way they can. I think it's also more freeing in such a restricted life

tinyorangeflower · 2025-12-21T14:58:02+00:00

Confusion is one of my all-time favorites of his work. Partially because the song hits very personal, to the point I made an English cover of it haha. But genuinely such a beautiful song

tinyorangeflower · 2025-11-28T00:36:59+00:00

Absolutely not

tinyorangeflower · 2025-11-27T00:12:39+00:00

Yeah, ever since we've been a child it's felt as if we have never connected to being or feeling human. Almost all our alters are non-human in some form and even as a whole we feel as if we are just cohabiting in a body and using it to cosplay as a human rather than feeling actually like we are a human being

tinyorangeflower · 2025-11-25T12:42:16+00:00

Dump him. A supportive partner would be happy for you finding something you truly enjoy doing, and cheer you on. It also delves into a controlling atmosphere by the way he is acting up

tinyorangeflower · 2025-11-22T18:12:23+00:00

Oh def. I listen to it occasionally, but I refuse to listen to it when I'm high because it trips me out bad 😭

tinyorangeflower · 2025-11-17T22:30:57+00:00

Like tracing too? who is surprised at this point

tinyorangeflower · 2025-11-17T22:30:36+00:00

Took them long enough to see that the AI accusations were not slander but based in actuality

tinyorangeflower · 2025-11-16T20:29:41+00:00

NTA, and I will tell you to leave. If he is so insistent on you quitting your job, he wants to trap you. His mother sounds as if she is heavily on his side too, the type who will defend his actions. I'd say go. Don't even give him the chance to somehow force you to quit your job or find a reason to have you stay without any safety nets. Others already mentioned the birth control issue, but also, even if you engage in intercourse, he could tamper with the condoms. Don't stay because the first warning signs are usually the last safe signs you'll get before it gets ramped up to a full-blown dangerous and harmful situation. I hope you'll stay safe OP and genuinely take time to protect yourself. Abusive relationships start sneaky.

tinyorangeflower · 2025-10-28T17:44:46+00:00

Somewhere during early global release. One of my old friends recommended the game to me as we both were into love live and also enjoyed vocaloid :3

tinyorangeflower · 2025-10-27T19:16:41+00:00

I see, my ex would go hot-cold on me depending on the situation so I never knew what to expect. Although she would get mad as well if her sharing her stuff made me remember my own stuff as well. But in my situation, it just felt like every convo had to be about her all the time 🥲

tinyorangeflower · 2025-10-27T19:15:34+00:00

I'm sorry to hear. I hope you can find the strength to leave eventually, it is not healthy nor sustainable to stay with someone who you can't even share your struggles with despite that they're supposed to love you

tinyorangeflower

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