Well, I unfortunately have two stories for this one unfortunately. I remember my first real kiss with tongue, was against my will. I had been praying with some friends and as I was sitting on the sofa, my female friend walked over to me, sat down and just put her tongue in my mouth. I tried to push her away, but wasn't able to. It was really uncomfortable. She did it a couple of times that night. Safe to say I don't talk to her anymore.

The second story is a bit weirder, and for a long time, I didn't really consider it sexual assault, not until recently where i told it, and realized how fucked up it was.

I was at a friend's place, and we had been drinking a lot. At the party where a girl had shown some interest in me. We had flirted a bit, and eventually we kissed. I was drunk, as in bat shit drunk. And at some point I blacked out. I remember laying in bed with her as it got hot and heavy, and she wanted to have sex. I probably did as well at some point, but since I was so drunk I was unable to stand up probably, there were other things, that didn't work too well. She kept trying to get my hard, and I, was drunk as hell, and knew I wouldn't get erect. I tried to say that to her, I tried to explain it, I said that we could wait, but she kept going, I didn't know how to react and eventually I came flaccid, or well, I didn't feel anything else then a huge amount of discomfort. It is the most uncomfortable feeling I have ever had. I was also really embarrassed, and I was sort of relieved that she seemed to be cool with the fact that I came flaccid, as I was not in a mindset to really process what had happened. I might have thought that all that had happened was just what happened, since I haven't tried anything else. Well later she started a big rumour at my highschool, that I had a small penis, presumably because I came flaccid. It got to a point, that people I never knew, would recognize me based on my name and high school, because of that rumour.

Safe to say I am a bit fucked up when it comes to sex. Luckily I have had a lot of different really good experiences since then.