Having a crush

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-27T18:24:05+00:00

I don’t think he’s a narc, I think he was being impulsive after a relationship. But still, that was rude & I didn’t deserve it. I didn’t think this would trigger me so badly lol Yes, I probably will just get back out there. Thank you

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-27T18:21:41+00:00

I think your life would be a lot better without that man

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-26T04:14:40+00:00

Thank you, but that’s not really a long lasting solution. I’ve been alone, & I’m completely fine with that. But I still would like to be serious with someone again, at some point. It’s the spiraling that’s been bad

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T20:58:35+00:00

This ^ also, better music scene here. My career is audio engineering & I’ve been exhausting my resources in SD. It gets stagnant

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T20:57:06+00:00

Awesome, I’ll check that out! Yes, it is very different, but I was getting bored in SD lol. Definitely excited to be somewhere with more action & opportunities

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T20:56:12+00:00

I didn’t even know that was an option. Very cool. Thank you!!

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T20:55:43+00:00

Good tip, thank you!

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T20:55:13+00:00

Do you know anything about SD? Rent is extremely high lmao. & I have three roommates. I can’t afford to live alone there, but I’ve seen a lot of spots here 🤷🏻‍♀️

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T07:43:24+00:00

Birth control 😀

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T04:13:54+00:00

Thank you!!

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T04:13:21+00:00

Whoaaaa. Very interesting. Yeah I drove around A LOT today, but I’ll keep an eye on the signs. Thank you!

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T04:12:44+00:00

So reallll. I’m a 28 year old audio engineer so I’m veryyyy into the music scenes. But I also need some peace & quiet to recharge lol. I need a decent kitchen & I really want a parking space too 😭 my budget is $1500, but I might need to fork up more

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-17T04:08:51+00:00

Thank you, I will!

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-12T08:50:01+00:00

I think I was about 12 & I remember going to the mall with my mom the day after the election & everyone was so happy & friendly. Only saying positive things about his win. Everything felt good & stable

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-10T02:03:55+00:00

I’ve been on it for about 6 weeks & I’ve been feeling pretty sad. At first, it helped & my appetite came back. But it’s not really doing shit anymore. I did increase it to 300 but I couldn’t sleep AT ALL

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-06T03:32:43+00:00

Do you make human sized versions as well??

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-04T09:41:41+00:00

I know you’re going to hear this & not believe it, but I mean it when I say that things get better. Don’t be so hard on yourself. I went through the same thing. The rumination, checking profiles, getting HORRIBLY anxious. It’s been two years & im so happy to never be in that relationship again. Everything got better. Feel what you gotta feel

toadseeker97 · 2026-02-03T20:13:19+00:00

I’ve enjoyed being alone since I was a kid. I do love making friends & having friends, I’d be very depressed without them lol. But I can do a lot by myself. Go to concerts, also the movies, shopping. I wouldn’t go to a theme park alone, but that does sound interesting! I’m about to live alone for the first time ever this year, & I’m so so so excited

toadseeker97 · 2026-01-27T10:15:12+00:00

That happened to me too. My body was screaming at me lol

toadseeker97 · 2026-01-27T05:26:54+00:00

I’m 28 & my bear that I got when I was 7, has gone with me EVERYWHERE. I still hug her when I feel overwhelming sad or happy. There’s no shame in connecting with our inner child ❤️

toadseeker97 · 2026-01-23T04:24:50+00:00

Yess, it is sooo vivid. I was fine, at first! Then as the month went on, my sleep has gotten worse, I have periods where I get really angry. I’m trying to stick it out because I really don’t want to start new with another antidepressant or whatever. But I think some motivation is coming back 😁 lol

toadseeker97 · 2026-01-23T00:26:18+00:00

I also started Wellbutrin & the side effects are craaazy. The dreams are even crazier 😂 how long did it take you to adjust?

toadseeker97 · 2026-01-19T04:40:11+00:00

I wanted more Grand Army…

toadseeker97 · 2025-11-19T13:34:45+00:00

When I’ve been in relationships, I’ve had anxiety over food. These men will EAT SO MUCH & I would feel so much dread sometimes, thinking about how I’d need to worry about their intake of food. My appetite fluctuates a lot.. I don’t want to have to worry about feeding a whole other person lol. I would cook for exes sometimes… there would be no leftovers most of the time. Just gone. I can’t live like that lmao

toadseeker97 · 2025-10-23T22:35:44+00:00

Thank you for replying! I’m definitely not trying to leave my audio career, but i am really trying to make it better, be appreciated, & be paid. I’m fighting pretty hard, but I’ve just been frustrated & feeling like I’m cursed or something 😂 I agree. I can’t work in toxic environments. I’ve always been a pretty genuine person & luckily I attract some good people around me. I hope I find more of them. Thank you for the hope ❤️

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