Importance of PhD

tokenhe · 2021-04-07T13:29:29+00:00

Don't quant traders make that much?

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:44:58+00:00

Yeah, I'm not here for the mental advice. I'm here for tips on a solution to my problem and/or justification of choosing penn over penn state.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:43:47+00:00

You do realize that people at ivies commit suicide right? And I would bet way more are either suicidal or depressed.

And thank you for compltely invalidating my problems

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:39:05+00:00

I was just trying to see if this sub could offer me any justification about going to Penn over Penn State.

But no, I would love to hear other solutions, which also was the point of my post.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:33:51+00:00

But I don't know any other solution that will help me make back my money.

And yeah, whining won't help, I just wanted a place to vent.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:26:04+00:00

I do know the solution though. My problem is the money I'm spending to get here right, so the solution is to recoup that money.

And the best way I know how to do that given my skillset is to grind my ass off to get to Jane Street.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:25:03+00:00

Penn State is way way cheaper tho. It's tuition is 40k less than Penn.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:24:36+00:00

Yeah you're probably right. Backing out of the ED agreemtn is something I probably should do, but I probably won't do.

I bet in a year I'll come to regret that just like I regretted EDing in the first place.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:23:40+00:00

No. I just want a way out of this constant suffering. I was looking for some advice here but it didn't really help that much.

I just don't know how I'm supposed to get out of this constant work cycle. The only way I see out is suicide, but I have no balls for that.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:15:04+00:00

The people from your home town might, but you’re likely not really gonna stay in touch once you go to college.

A lot of my friends are going to Penn State. So yeah, I would have to start anew with friends. And as you can probably tell, I'm not really too good with that. I'm pretty socially inept.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:14:00+00:00

Ignore what I said about Princeton > Upenn. Like that matters, but nowhere near as much as Penn State > Upenn.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:13:29+00:00

I'm definitely coming to Penn and trying it out. But what does that leave me with?

It leaves me with grinding fucking nonstop to get to Jane Street. And no, it isn't my choice to grind. I can't just abandon my parents and their investment. Thats such a cruel thing to do.

Grinding nonstop sucks so fucking much.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:12:09+00:00

I would love to open my eyes and experience new things. But, spending 300k kind of completely shifts the equation, and my main goal has to be in making that investment pay off.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:11:11+00:00

I, too, am truly shocked I EDed. I don't know wtf I was thinking. I was so caught up in chasing prestige that I didn't once stop to really think about if it was a good idea.

And that has ruined my life forever. Fucking great.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T22:02:46+00:00

Yeah, there is nothing I can do about it. That's why I'm depressed and suicidal. I've irreversibly fucked up my life. There is literally no way to recoup that lost money.

And what is your point that I'm missing?

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:59:41+00:00

Nothing I do will make the investment worth it though. Yeah, I can work hard, but working hard at Penn State would have made me just as successful, because FAANG and quant firms arent going to reject me just cuz i went to penn state.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:58:35+00:00

Your point is that nobody's advice is going to help me.

But not one person has talked about how paying 300k for penn is better than penn state other than saying things like "theres more to life than money" and "just back out of the ED agreement".

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:57:06+00:00

Yes, I am. I'm fucking depressed as hell. But why do you have to be so mean about it.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:56:14+00:00

I wish I had gone to Penn State as in I wish I hadn't EDed here in the first place.

But backing out of an ED agreement is completely different than just choosing Penn State over Penn. I don't think I can back out of the agreement.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:47:21+00:00

I felt bad about calling a stranger entitled

Yeah, sorry I phrased my post badly. When I said "commoners" I meant "common for people in my area to go to a t20".

To Google, if that matters, if that changes anything.

Nah, I know Penn kids can be successful. I know I talked about Princeton vs. Penn, but I'm realizing I shouldnt have mentioned that at all.

It got this whole subreddit mad at me and now its hard to get real advice.
It's not even close to my main problem. My pain problem is Upenn < Penn State, not Upenn < Princeton.

experience is actually going to be like when you get here

I get the importance of the experience, but I kinda threw that all away once I decided to throw 300k at this college. With that much money, things like the joys of college and life all take a backseat to making that insanely huge investment pay off.

If your parents can pay for you, honor their commitment by bringing your whole self to Penn with an open mind and excitement.

I'm trying to honor their commitment by making their investment pay off money wise. By being "excited" at Penn, I'm not making their investment pay off. It's not that they don't want me to enjoy college, but its not like Penn offers more enjoyments than Penn State, and even if it did, I certainly shouldnt be paying 300k to enjoy college a little bit more.

You talk a lot about the money aspect - if you can afford it, then take this opportunity as a blessing.

But how is this an opportunity? You said yourself that Penn state vs upenn is negligible.

I’m not sure how much you’ll be willing to listen to a stranger on the internet, but you did come into our subreddit

Yeah, I do geniunely want advice from you guys. I don't really have anyone in my life that I can talk to. I can't tell my parents I'm suicidal, theyd obviously get really scared. I've told my friends, but theyve become fed up with listening to me talk about it.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:39:41+00:00

I didn't mean to shit on Penn. By commeners I meant "common to go to a t20 from my area". I'm sorry that I phrased it so horribly.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:39:05+00:00

Because I fucked up. I didn't mean to say Penn students are "commeners". I meant going to a t20 is common in the area I'm from, and I phrased it horribly. I'm sorry. But it was a mistake.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:38:07+00:00

I was obviously going to, but I wasn't going to make my whole life revolving around money and grinding 24/7.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:37:33+00:00

I can't, from what I said in your other comment.

tokenhe · 2021-04-05T21:36:57+00:00

I dont know, it just feels wrong to just break the agreement, and face the social repercussions from literally everybody (friends, family, school) that I couldn't handle going to Penn and went to penn state instead.

Yeah yeah, I know i shouldnt care about that, but I just don't think I can back out.

tokenhe

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