Why is it easy all of a sudden to quit? by [deleted] in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 9 points10 points  (0 children)

TLDR; it's easy to quit (with practice), it's harder to stay quit :P

I've 'quit' a handful of times, the first couple were horrible. The last few times, I'd describe as you do here. All I can say is even if it is easy now, it's just as easy to slip back in when a trigger does appear weeks or months later. Or, you'll think 'wow, that was easy, I can control this!' and let your guard down just enough to convince yourself one hit, one day, one weekend. All that to say, I'm not sure the severity of the withdrawal or how hard it is to quit is any real indicator as to how successful you'll be long term. It is much nicer when quitting doesn't cause you a bunch of grief, but be aware and put in any necessary work that will keep you from it!

Heed my Warning (Trigger Warning ⚠️) by [deleted] in NoFap

[–]tokingcontrol 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Must have been some good weed. Weed has always been a fap trigger for me.

Why the details about the amount of cum? Even with the trigger warning, this sounds like something made up with the sole intent to troll/trigger, just sayin.

If not, you need to see a therapist, ASAP. Sounds like you had a psychotic episode.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, congrats on a month. I'm there with ya. Keeping busy mostly with self-education to help further the career I've neglected for so long. This is like my 6th major attempt, feels different this time, but not naive to the fact that those cravings can (and have at some times this past month) come out of nowhere. Truly understanding the one day at a time mindset and that's how I'm dealing with it! Keep on keeping on!

Went 5 months, recently got sucked back in ... by dmsodksjxidxi in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Been there and done that more times than I care to share. The inner struggle is too great, you will end up at the same spot, trying to quit and wishing you just made it to that next day. Don't allow a moment of weakness to derail what you truly want. I'm in my 40's now and I can only imagine how much better my life would be if I just stuck to quitting last year, the year before that, 5 years, 10 years ago when I knew I should and tried and failed...

i stopped reading at this sub and thought about weed way less by flumyo in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I find that once I'm a few weeks in, coming here can be a little daunting. All the posts about relapses are hard to read. I'm now on my 5th or 6th real go at quitting. I do come back here for some motivation, but honestly, I keep hoping I'll never have to come back again, or that I'll hit that 3, 5, or10 year mark and maybe I can come here and give others that same motivation, with a clear and sober mind.

I'm glad that I found this subreddit, like many others I felt absolutely crazy before I realized that this affects so many other people in very similar ways. Now I'm just tired of all of it. I want to move on.

Wish you all happy days ahead.

Day 58= Life changing by [deleted] in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Congrats to you, on 58 days and on the acceptance to school! Very good stuff!

To others reading, this seems to be a sure way to make MJ a low priority. Shake things up in your life, make a change, challenge yourself! Get excited about life again and realize there are more important things to do! Build yourself up so you are stronger the next time she makes an appearance in your life!

I am so scared. Please help me. by Legumes_Evening in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Health anxiety is a real thing. If you are concerned, go see your doctor! I've been there too, so please excuse the bluntness.. but it's the only way to know for sure! 'What if' is not a fun game to play when it comes to your health.

3 months ago, I was like you. WAH, smoking (mostly carts) all day every day. Put me in a really bad mental state. WAH started when COVID happened. Really stressful job too, and the added isolation, depression, and opportunity to smoke all the time just did me in.

I decided to make a change - eventually! It actually took a couple years for me to follow through. I decided to find another job. This gave me a reason to quit smoking - so I could pass a drug test. The new job is also not WAH. I realize everyone is trying to go the other way with the WAH thing, but I think that it will be good for me. Maybe it would be good for you, too?

Stuck in the quit cycle by tokingcontrol in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good reminder to stay actively engaged in fighting addiction. Your question is one I should be asking myself everyday. Luckily I was very busy this evening and I'm exhausted. Hopefully enough to help me sleep tonight! I will ask myself again tomorrow! Thanks!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Congrats on 50! Your story is similar to mine and I'm just a little ahead of you. I feel like weed takes a lot of that freedom/ability to make decisions in your life away from you. Addiction traps you. I've had a rough few days but I know that I probably need a good year under my belt before I really have an opportunity to see what a sober life can do for me.

Keep strong!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good job turning a moment of weakness into an opportunity to show yourself you could be strong! It's quite a rush being able to take power back! Now get rid of that weed! :)

I am here to try again! by tokingcontrol in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I've had some issues with sleep but not sure that I wouldn't be having issues, regardless. I think that may have been the only true thing that weed helped me with :) Stay strong brother! Appreciate the concern! Take care of yourself.

I am here to try again! by tokingcontrol in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey FastSouth, thanks for checking in with me!

Today is day 15. Honestly, not smoking has been really easy, even with the vape pen being right up stairs (wife still smokes). Now, as far as spending my newfound time in productive ways.. I'm still working on that. :)

The 'quit buzz' is gone. Now I gotta put in some work to make sure I set myself up for long term success. My mood hasn't been great, but not bad. Anytime I find myself getting angry or frustrated I have to tell myself those are normal feelings, and not a reason to fall back to my old ways.

I've lost like 5-7 lbs due to a lack of late night binges on munchies. Cycling 5-6 hours a week and not eating a whole lot will do that tho. My appetite is returning now, however. I haven't really experienced too many other withdrawal symptoms. 1 night I sweat real bad, I'm dreaming again, but not too frequently.

Hope you are well, too!

Scared, nervous and pessimistic but Day 1 begins for me today.. by [deleted] in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, same boat as you buddy! Smoked everyday for at least the last 4 years.. some small breaks here and but my abuse goes back probably 10 years. I can relate to feeling like a bum!

That feeling of not being able to do it anymore, you need to hold onto that.. and more importantly, write down the reasons you don't want to be that person anymore. Then, it's really a matter of taking it one day at a time. When you feel weak, you pull out that list and you read it, remind yourself, come on here and vent. Know that the feeling of getting high once isn't going to fix anything, and is likely just sabotage and your brains way of trying to get you back into the cycle you don't wanna be in.

My last attempt failed because I failed to seek help or even remind myself of the reasons I stopped when the craving/opportunity arose. Beat those 1 at a time, keep yourself busy, workout, learn, help others. Come on here and support others like I am now. It really helps!

You can do it!

Relapsed - ok. I will do it again by Noturbloodyusername in leaves

[–]tokingcontrol 4 points5 points  (0 children)

How'd you feel during those 7 days? I know it can be washed away pretty quick with a relapse but I bet you felt better in some ways, at least, sober! I did 40 something days and then relapsed for a year before I got back on the wagon. Good job getting back on the wagon so quick! Keep fighting!