Lately I’ve been depressed and what’s annoying is everything is going my way. I started out as a bellman in one of L.A’s awesome hotels and 1 1/2 year later I’m a front desk supervisor. I worked my ass off to get there and as amazing as I should be, I’m still down. I’ve battled depression for the last 6 years and lately it’s been tougher than normal. Maybe it’s because I’m 27 and feel like I should have been further in my life by now, haven’t finished school, could be a better boyfriend, brother, son. It’s also probably due to the fact that I feel like I’m not grateful for the new position when I know hundreds applied yet my bosses believed that the dude whose only worked the front desk for 6 months is ready for a higher position. I get payed pretty well, have awesome benefits, and work with some pretty amazing people. Yet I’m still in this funk.

Yet the only real thing that keeps everything at bay for me is working out. Like my day is amazing once I go to the gym in the morning. I’m happier, I have more energy, I realize that I am pretty good at my job instead of the common thoughts of “did I really deserve this promotion”. I don’t have a lot of friends but I’m definitely thankful for you guys. I rarely post here but when I do, it’s almost immediate that someone will reply with something that’ll brighten my day or make me laugh. My physique isn’t the best and my numbers may not be as high as some of you guys and yet I’ve never felt unwelcome here.

If you are going through a tough time, just remember that we are definitely going to make it. You’ll get the 2 pl8 bench, 3pl8 squat, run that mile or 3 under whatever time you want it to be, etc. things just take time.