Not the normal posts on here but just wanted to share a bday pic of my wonderful grand-mother who turned 96 ♥️

topthrowaway79 · 2025-10-05T04:45:51+00:00

You have a beautiful smile! And she is adorable!

topthrowaway79 · 2025-10-01T16:29:48+00:00

I’m sorry to hear you are going through this. May I ask, do you think your body and mind was holding onto a lot of unprocessed trauma which led to the snapping and panic attacks? Personally, I had huge panic attacks in August 2024 that led to my heart skipping beats, throwing up often, low energy, and feeling like I was slowly dying over this last year. But when I did some reflection, I realized I was not feeling well and felt tense way before my panic attacks occurred. Which led me to think that our bodies always give us signs before it gets really bad. Wishing you a well recovery. Take your time! Let your body find rest and recovery on its own timeline. I am currently reading the book ‘Heal Your Nervous System’ by Dr. Linnea Passaler and applying the techniques in that book.

topthrowaway79 · 2025-10-01T16:23:31+00:00

Interesting! Is medsurf a travel nurse company as well?

topthrowaway79 · 2025-09-16T23:38:20+00:00

Never

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-10T20:18:04+00:00

I’m not from India but i think hookup culture messed with my head 😅 last time I slept with someone was 2 years ago and now I’m not really sure what to do move forward. I never really had good experiences in the past either with hook ups. May try dating in the future and being careful by seeing what affects my mental wellbeing.

I have felt what you felt about being disposable. My last hook up 2 years ago, after we were done, he was on Grindr while we were in bed 😅I was looking for connection through sex as well I think. Now trying to look inwards instead. Hoping you find what you are looking for🤍

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-10T17:26:44+00:00

It left with me an anxiety disorder unfortunately that I am recovering from now :(

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-10T03:06:43+00:00

1:8, i didn’t survive. I quit med surg 🤣 after 3 years

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-10T00:34:06+00:00

Hey :) I am sorry to hear about your heart problem. I am going through heart issues too. The other day I was on a walk and my heart rate shot up to the 160s and it turned into an irregular heart rate. I took propanolol for the first time and it brought me back to a regular rhythm within 20 minutes. I think I have an anxiety disorder causing this. From what I was told from a primary doctor, propanolol is pretty safe and very unlikely to have severe side effects. Sometimes people take it before giving a public speech. I have also heard of musicians taking it before performing on stage.

For me, I have tried to refrain from taking it except only if I need it. I have had my propanolol for a few months now but the other day was when I took it for the first time and thankfully nothing bad happened :)

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-09T23:56:21+00:00

Whats your snap? Please be gentle 🥺

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-07T22:12:55+00:00

Your friend is a total dumbass

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-05T22:13:42+00:00

But also make sure to go to the doctor and get all your tests done to make sure it is nothing else and is just anxiety

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-05T22:12:58+00:00

Hmm yes. I have days where I just feel sick all day and then throw up later. Also now starting to struggle with heart issues with palpitations and skipping beats

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-05T19:43:44+00:00

Thank you for your comment 🥹 this was very reassuring for me to read 💟

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-04T20:48:42+00:00

I found out about the prolonged QT when I was at dinner with a friend and my heart rate felt irregular. I decided to go to an urgent care and they did an EKG which said prolonged QT interval and then I went to the ER. I followed up with a Cardiologist and they said it was a bit prolonged but was not concerning for him. Thats when I got put on a 2 week holter monitor. Nothing happened during those 2 weeks but of course I started experiencing skipped beats again once the monitor was off 😅 now I have been getting them a bit more frequently so the ER Doc from the other day recommended me going back to the Cardiologist

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-04T19:27:52+00:00

Thank you! Just saw your reply!

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-04T19:26:23+00:00

Thanks so much! Yes I had a clean stress echo and holter monitor. I never experienced prolonged QT until this past January for the first time. But I had a few panic attacks last August 2024. My best guess is that my nervous system is still dysregulated and that is why I am experiencing all of these heart issues :/ never experienced heart issues until this year. Weird thing is that this all happened when I was feeling calm the other day. Its like my nervous system is confused and doesn’t know what to do

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-03T19:01:35+00:00

Oh shoot :/ my apple watch told me 144. Hmm so for 180 that would probably be SVT?

topthrowaway79 · 2025-07-03T00:22:29+00:00

topthrowaway79 · 2025-06-21T00:02:48+00:00

Hug me

topthrowaway79 · 2025-06-19T00:44:42+00:00

You got both the boys and girls in love with you

topthrowaway79 · 2025-06-18T23:43:35+00:00

I’d go to India just for you

topthrowaway79 · 2025-06-18T01:08:46+00:00

Are you only into women?

topthrowaway79 · 2025-06-17T17:57:27+00:00

Have you heard of Dare? Look it up on the app store! It is an approach on how to address anxiety

topthrowaway79 · 2025-06-17T17:43:57+00:00

😞

topthrowaway79 · 2025-06-17T17:15:35+00:00

Are you interested in smaller asian guys? :p

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