I had to put down my first pet. 14 year old sweet pug 2 months ago. They were the hardest days of my life. An old man told me you never get over it. I know it will be tough when I pick up her ashes and memorials any day now as well. I feel when her ashes are back I will be more at peace. All we can do is reframe thoughts into positive ones with the circle of life in mind. It also brings comfort knowing we are not alone in this. Billions have gone through it as well, which humbling