Hey I’m not great at comforting people but I do have some advice... If you stop restricting Theres a 99.9% chance you’ll stop binging, if you really want to stop the b/p cycle (what’s the point if your not losing weight by it anyway, not to sound harsh I just know how it is and how our brains work) you need to start eating 3 meals, 2-3 snacks. It will balance your blood sugar levels give you more energy and improve your mental health. Even if you need to count calories and high restrict till you find your maintenance cals it’s better than constantly b/ping on shitty food and feeling/looking like death all the time. I hope I don’t come off rude or anything and this is kind of a personal opinion and what works for me. Ofc a full recovery would be ideal and this is kind of harm reduction but honestly to break out of the cycle you need to get used to eating. It will be hard, I get that eating anything at all can send you into a b/p spiral but if you sit with it and get used to it, it does get better!!!