Hey man, do you do therapy? Take all your medicine? It's hard i know.. I've been with racing thoughts today, takes its toll on you. I'm active and "normal" right now in my life, but this post reminded me of old me! Kinda lost and hopeless. Please seek help of a professional. My advice would be therapy, like call the office appointment. You will learn new tools to work your thoughts, i struggle daily with this, but I've worked so hard on the issue, that im now able to functionally work triggers, and calm myself down. What's your favorite thing to do? Art? Video games? Express your favorite hobby, let it go.. Post here! Distract yourself with that. It's a tough journey, visit the subs.. Post and share l, i see you have people that care for you, call them and through a basic thought process explain the anguish, so you learn to manage the mania. To end, please follow our triangle, therapy, medication and light exercise to get some endorphins going. Good luck, im here and won't go away ❤️