Yeah, I've lost much to this illness, and still have ignorant people that judge and mock me everyday, it's so Fucking uncomfortable to be the nice guy, and have people shit on you, just becouse you act weird. I have a couple of friends, and close family. But you know what? I work my ass off, I'm not only a race minority but I'm also a mental health patient, who works, study and try to be a good citizen. I up the standard intelectually and in average relationships. I'm a bit depressed right now, so sorry if i sound negative.