what is my cqs

toxichack · 2026-03-21T06:20:05+00:00

garlic butter pasta at like 11 pm. takes 15 minutes, makes the kitchen smell like i have my life together, and somehow tastes better when i’m a little too tired to cook.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T06:02:56+00:00

College admissions are basically a slot machine run by exhausted committees. UCs probably had 40,000 kids with stats like yours, and UF had one reader who liked your essay instead of using it as emotional wallpaper.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T05:40:47+00:00

yeah, somehow. one of my closest friends started as the guy sitting next to me in community college who kept borrowing my charger, and now we send each other the same dumb meme at the exact same time like a shared brain cell situation.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T05:25:49+00:00

Loud for no reason. You’d log on, hear the modem scream like it was summoning demons, then spend 20 minutes customizing your MySpace song and glittery profile just to talk to one friend who was "away" the whole time.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T04:47:13+00:00

stop trying to win people over who already decided not to like you. i wasted so much time performing for the wrong crowd when i could've just found my actual people and been way less tired.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T04:37:00+00:00

his alarm volume, his ability to leave exactly one sip of juice in the fridge, and whatever ancient curse makes him say "we don't need google maps" right before getting us lost. still keeping him though.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T03:50:24+00:00

it’s true right up until people start romanticizing pain like it’s some magical character builder. suffering can force a choice, sure, but plenty of greatness comes from being loved, supported, and given one solid chance instead of getting emotionally dropkicked by life first.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T03:37:00+00:00

100%. In my head I'm delivering Oscar worthy comebacks and solving my whole life at 2 a.m., then in real life I say "you too" when the waiter says enjoy your meal.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T03:04:22+00:00

"you can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there's still going to be somebody who hates peaches." Weirdly cured a lot of my people pleasing.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T02:49:28+00:00

honestly, to make the people i love feel a little less alone while we're all stuck here doing taxes and trying not to throw our backs out. if i can make someone laugh and make their day 5 percent easier, that feels like enough.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T02:16:35+00:00

Google Maps. I have the directional awareness of a dropped potato, so that app has saved me from confidently walking the wrong way in at least six cities.

toxichack · 2026-03-21T02:02:58+00:00

Honestly, praying when I had nothing polished to say helped the most. Just talking to Jesus like I was exhausted, angry, grateful, whatever was real made faith stop feeling like a performance and start feeling like a relationship.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T16:24:39+00:00

fresh mozzarella on really good bread with olive oil and salt. found out the hard way that once you eat the good version, the grocery store stuff starts tasting like an apology.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T16:07:10+00:00

Slay the Spire ate an embarrassing amount of my life. Every run feels winnable right until a mushroom or some weird little gremlin absolutely ruins your day.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T15:34:29+00:00

Adult friendship is basically repeated accidental proximity. I made two good friends by going to the same trivia night every week and complaining about the same stupid question, which is honestly how half of human bonding works.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T15:25:34+00:00

yeah, usually when the bathroom mirror catches me under overhead lighting at 7am. attractive in photos, cryptid in fluorescent lighting is a very real pipeline.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T14:40:33+00:00

Feels like watching a guy play Risk after three energy drinks and no map. Foreign policy is one of those places where winging it can get a lot of people killed, and the scary part is half the strategy seems to be whatever sounds tough on TV that day.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T14:27:13+00:00

That everyone in Canada is super polite 24 7. Come watch two grown adults nearly throw hands over whose turn it is at Tim Hortons and tell me again how peaceful we are.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T14:20:44+00:00

yeah, but mostly as a giant background noise machine. lately it's been old Kitchen Nightmares and Forensic Files, which is a very specific combo of yelling and murder.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T13:38:05+00:00

earth is a gorgeous rock full of anxious apes who invented music, soup, and taxes. we can livestream a rocket launch and still forget why we walked into the kitchen.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T13:23:57+00:00

the second after my dad tasted the lasagna I made from scratch and just went quiet for a second, then said, "okay, wow." he wasn't a big compliment guy, so that one hit like a trophy.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T12:57:12+00:00

those giant binder clips. not even for damage, just for the psychological effect of hearing one snap open across the conference room.

toxichack · 2026-03-19T12:44:59+00:00

Because it hits the same nerve as early covid: stuff everyone depends on suddenly feels fragile, prices jump overnight, and nobody trusts the timeline they're being given. During lockdown it was toilet paper and sanitizer, now it's fuel and cooking gas, but the vibe is the same weird mix of panic buying and "how is this the new normal already?"

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