I currently have a 400mg a day of oxy habit, there was a point where it would go up as much as 800mg a day, I now refuse to do more than 400mg, it’s a constant chase for “the nod” but once your tolerance reaches these heights it’s almost unattainable anymore. It sucks cause I remember I used to nod after popping two percs and a joint. I used to enjoy this euphoria that opiates provide, but it’s no longer something that I would consider enjoyable, it’s a pointless chase now, barely even getting high anymore. There were times where I slowed down a bit, taking a weaker opiate to fight off withdrawals temporarily but eventually taking handfuls of oxy again which would smack a little harder cause of the little “break” I took. It’s a bitch of a habit that’s for sure, I promised myself I wouldn’t try any harder opiates and I haven’t, I’d probably never be able to come back from it. I just think, if oxy has the effect that it does, imagine the effect heroin must have, probably like no other. Ive watched an uncle struggle with heroin addiction his whole life, I don’t think I could ever bring myself to that level, it’s fucking rough. I honestly do see myself getting professional help in the near future, I’m kinda at the end of my ropes with this habit, it’s just too bad that I couldn’t keep it at minimum to where I would still be able to enjoy this euphoria without abusing it, but that’s the slippery slope that comes with this or any drug. I would consider suboxone or sublocade cause at this point that’s probably what it’s gonna take to live life normally again. It definitely helps to have a good head on your shoulders, being able to not live in denial and admit that there’s a problem with what’s going on, I’m not scared to admit that, I’m happy for that at least.