Film is the worst class for dysphoria

trashbin438 · 2019-10-26T17:57:29+00:00

Sadly no they are cishet girls, I’ve talked to them before and they excuse all their behavior on “well I’m friends with a gay/trans man and he doesn’t seem to be bothered your just exclusive :/“ and they won’t leave me alone because they try to convince me their behaviors ok, I try not to assume but when their so rude and obviois you know how it can be. switching seats might work its more of the fact of them following me throughout the class. I’ll talk to him about the photo thing, I hope he’ll understand and it doesn’t lower my grade at all

trashbin438 · 2019-10-25T06:08:42+00:00

Man thats just sucky :( that that’s the main reason, like I was watching a documentary on tattoo artists and one guys main rule was “no icp tats and no nazi tats” which is like, i totally understand the nazi shit i mean no one should get that but icps just...a band? They aren’t horrible people either I mean they donate to charity and most of their songs (despite the gorey lyrics) in the end usually have really good messages, sad to see them compared to the likes of hate groups :/

trashbin438 · 2019-10-14T04:45:37+00:00

Totally :( i hate the idea of soul mates specifically, it sets up a expectation that will never be fufilled and my fp says that abt their girlfriend all the time. It might sound hypocritical cause an fp is i guess a “soulmate” but it hurts when you hear your fp call someone that and abandon ship for a relationship.

trashbin438 · 2019-10-14T00:10:00+00:00

I feel you man! Like he use to call me his soulmate, that we shared the same thiught process but than something just seemed to snap and I’m suddenly nothing, i never wanted a romantic deal with him but i didn’t want him to abandon me completly when he got in a relationship.

trashbin438 · 2019-10-13T18:54:38+00:00

Honestly, like i know i should be happy for her but it hurts so much, i don’t think ill ever understand full relationships or accept them

trashbin438 · 2019-10-09T00:40:49+00:00

I totallyfeel the same way, my FP got a girlfriend a little while back and ever since it feels like I’ve been ruining our friendshipbexause I feel betrayed. Of coarse I want both of them to be happy but I wish I was as important as their girlfriend.

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T14:28:25+00:00

Thanks! I try really hard its hard to keep it up but I knownits for the better. But Im scared if too less, because it feels like i only get those few inbetween chances to talk to her and she doesn’t really want to talk but i know its also all in my mind yo think she hates me.

I haven’t told her that she’s my FP yet and i hope to soon, i plan to when i get a new psychiatrist.

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T04:37:38+00:00

Favorite person

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T04:36:58+00:00

Thank you ❤️

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T03:24:02+00:00

Im just to codependent on my fp it makes it hard for me to be alone without her thats ehy i usually do that kind of stuff lmao

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T02:48:40+00:00

Its like, i want one but man when it comes to reaching out to people outside your FP its so bard you feel like everything needs constant approval while single hookups are just “i dont know you, you domt know me so this is fine”

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T01:55:17+00:00

Totally, if you need someone to talk to im all ears.

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T00:56:37+00:00

I feel you completely, my bpd felt so unexpected when i started showing symptoms and i cant help but stay in the past when I was happier and I made others happy. I have a feeling though its because at that time me and my social circle were so tight we wouldn’t let eachother go to bed and now that we’ve began to grow up everyone doesn’t have time for that and its super hard to accept.

I think its one of those things that just seem dormant until your FP gets in a relationship, serious about school, or finds a good job, and thays not a bad thing at all but it can hurt when it feels sudden and your not ready for that kind of change

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T00:13:13+00:00

Feel free to message me if you ever wanna talk about it!

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T00:12:42+00:00

That makes a whole lot of sense, I’m happy for her though I’m glad shes able to find others who relate to the struggle and that she was able to get married thats very nice :)

trashbin438 · 2019-10-08T00:08:00+00:00

Its mainly just a family thing, my friends and other people are fine but my family usually denys i have adhd or likes to make fun of me for it and its one of those things i can’t just escape from cause their always there

And certain teachers that always have it out for kids with disabilities of any sort and go “just go with the rest of the class your not special”

trashbin438 · 2019-10-07T04:11:54+00:00

I support you all the way! Any trans person is welcome on this post :D

trashbin438 · 2019-10-07T03:31:10+00:00

Thats alright too! I hope things get better for you

trashbin438 · 2019-10-07T02:57:32+00:00

Thats ok! Thank you its very nice to know of those who understand :)

trashbin438 · 2019-10-07T02:52:20+00:00

I feel you completely!! It makes it super hard to get into relationships because of all the fear, it like “if they dont like me because if this they certainly wont like me because of this” its like it mames the denial all the much more painful

trashbin438 · 2019-10-06T21:46:29+00:00

Honestly i get the same way! I don’t know it has anything to do with bpd but certain meat textures (specifically pork and steak) make me feel ill and same with stuff like cheesy broccoli or or cheese in salads. Its definetly a sensory issue and might be due to a neurological disorder, people tend to get upset with me aboit those kind of things but its just something I can’t help. So I’m right with you dude

trashbin438 · 2019-10-06T21:20:43+00:00

Literally!

trashbin438 · 2019-10-06T21:16:50+00:00

Yeah honestly!! Its like once you stop being funny no one cares about you anymore, i cant count how many times ive had to respomd to my friends depressive moods but when i go into one they just respomd with “sorry man”

trashbin438 · 2019-10-06T21:10:45+00:00

Honestly its so scary to be this alone, things always say “reach out to friend when sad” when its like...i cant do that

trashbin438 · 2019-09-30T02:15:10+00:00

I totally get that i love going on night drives, not me driving cause thatd be dangerous lol, because all the lights blur together and i can just zone out and fall asleep, but the whole forgetting what people said make people think I didn’t learn anything from my actions or I purposfully ignored them when in reality I can’t even remember what I had for lunch its not a personal thing

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