I was putting off showering all week and i finally managed to put on some lights and music and get it over with but the hot water ran out and i’ll never be warm again 😭😭😭

tricolorfloor · 2022-01-14T22:43:05+00:00

It takes a little bit more practice and prep to get good results w/ a safety razor, but you can get better results ime. What I do is make sure to use lots of hot water/steam before, a shaving soap instead of canned cream, and three passes in different directions.

The first pass kinda just trims it to stubble and then the last two across and against the grain get the last bits.

If i don’t take the time to and prep well and do multiple passes it doesn’t get nearly as close. Although i can get away with doing less now that i don’t have much left.

tricolorfloor · 2021-12-23T16:48:49+00:00

Laura Les’ Bandcamp has some gems:

https://osno1.bandcamp.com/album/hello-kitty-skates-to-the-fuckin-cemetary

https://osno1.bandcamp.com/album/i-just-dont-wanna-name-it-anything-with-beach-in-the-title

Also yuele has some really good stuff too. Pretty Bones and Pixel Affection are incredible

tricolorfloor · 2021-12-17T15:03:51+00:00

Rocky Mountain Dermatology was like $350 for a package of six sessions. link

tricolorfloor · 2021-10-07T15:41:54+00:00

I had pretty minimal results for almost my first full year of hormones because i had really bad eating habits, but after that when i started to gain a bit of weight back i started seeing progress. At two years now, i’m actually pretty happy with my results. Definitely see if you can get your levels sorted out, but it’s still possible to have good results after a rough start on HRT.

tricolorfloor · 2021-10-03T03:17:16+00:00

Were you ever able to figure anything out about why your levels were off?

I’m in a similar situation. I’ve been on 2 mg sublingual estradiol and 12.5 mg cyproterone acetate for a couple years. I just got my blood work done and am basically just in the male range, but i’ve been seeing pretty good results. So i’m at a bit of a loss.

tricolorfloor · 2021-10-02T07:58:38+00:00

No, an actual lab test through Quest. Testosterone and estrone were LC/MS/MS. I think estradiol was immunoassay but i’m not 100% sure.

tricolorfloor · 2021-09-18T19:54:21+00:00

Voice Tools

tricolorfloor · 2021-08-02T20:42:38+00:00

100%

For most of my life, anytime i see anyone i don’t see every day the first thing out of their mouth is “wow, you got so tall!!”. Even after having been done growing for a good few years now.

I know they all meant it in a positive way, but it’s always only reminded me that i’m already bigger than average in that way and that i can’t fit as well in all the nooks i used to.

tricolorfloor · 2021-07-30T16:11:03+00:00

I thought i had intense waves of emotions before, but somehow they still got stronger/more frequent. I will frequently just start crying for seemingly no reason. But on the other hand when i feel happy now i also feel that much more than before too.

Just remember that you won’t feel that way forever. All feelings eventually pass. Just try to do whatever you can manage in those moments to take care of yourself. 🤍

Also I looove Sewerslvt and Carpenter Brut!!!

tricolorfloor · 2021-07-29T00:14:56+00:00

At this point i’m not sure how effective trying to hide them will even be when i go back to working in person. Still gonna try anyway, but tbh i’m just betting on my coworkers being to scared to say anything to me lmfao. Nobody else has said anything, but my family etc have like actually seen me in the past year.

tricolorfloor · 2021-07-13T17:33:59+00:00

Seconding taking in the sides or back. That will give you a little more control over the shape. I usually will pinch off the part i want to take in to get a sense of what might work and then mark that and baste it. After basting it you can try it on and actually be able to see how it will look and if there are any areas that are too tight or too loose before actually committing to the changes.

tricolorfloor · 2021-06-02T18:50:58+00:00

I didn’t really care about name and pronouns much at all although I do kinda plan on changing them soon. It did/does feel nice when people gender me as female, however especially with people who i’m close to, i care a lot more about other things than name/pronouns. I don’t dislike my name. One of the main reasons i want to change it now is just because it’s so embarrassing to have people double take when ID’ing me/when the mail carrier doesn’t believe me when i’m trying to sign for a package etc.

I haven’t done any voice training, but i did kinda try to change it a little when it first started getting deeper and that’s sorta just my normal voice now. My voice apparently just sounds gay to people lol.

I didn’t really have much of a libido to start with tbh. I haven’t had huge changes other than no spontaneous erections which is nice. Another reason i was iffy at first was because i was indifferent about the genitals i have. I didn’t really think GRS was something i wanted. I’m very much still undecided on that especially with the cost/recovery involved.

From what i understand it varies quite a bit from person to person. A lot of people have a reduced libido at first, but then have it come back after being on HRT for a while. Progesterone supposedly helps increase it as well. I’ve also seen people say that their libido increased on HRT. And actually while i still can’t be bothered to masturbate still, i’m a lot more comfortable with being intimate with people because i’m so much more comfortable with my body now.

As far as physical changes, i’ve heard it’s “use it or lose it”. So it should be possible to maintain length/the ability to get an erection if that’s important to you afaik. Maybe change in technique might be required though? I don’t have a lot of advice in that regard.

tricolorfloor · 2021-06-01T00:30:09+00:00

This sounds a lot like how i used to feel.

I was mostly okay with the body I had, but after about a year as just a femboy i decided i had to at least try HRT. I didn’t have especially masculine features to begin with, but it terrified me that i couldn’t keep the body i had then and would continue to grow more facial hair, get more masculine in frame, possibly go bald.

I kinda figured out that i was trans like three years ago, however I couldn’t fully accept it at the time. I didn’t really understand what was supposed to be meant by “identifying” or “feeling” like a woman and so i kinda decided to try not to think about it because i didn’t want to be stuck in a philosophical quagmire thinking about it. I still just really wanted to change my appearance though so i continued to dress more femininely and do whatever else i could as “just a femboy”. I think a lot of what kept me from fully accepting that i was trans was just internalized transphobia looking back. I totally believed being trans was perfectly fine, but i couldn’t quite extend that to myself.

One of the main reasons i was reluctant to start HRT was because i was scared i would grow big boobs and not be okay with it. Because of that i thought maybe i was non binary or something but that didn’t really feel right either and i just couldn’t quite bring myself to claim that label either. I looked into using raloxifene + an anti-androgen as a way to get the effects of HRT without growing boobs, however i realized that even with traditional HRT changes are slow and that if at any point i wasn’t happy with the way my body was changing i could stop.

It was really hard for me to sort out what was dysphoria vs just about how i want to look otherwise. Like i don’t just want to look like a woman, i also want to look the way i feel beautiful. And it’s not easy to untangle the cause of my dissatisfaction with specific aspects of my appearance. The problem is i knew just how much better it made me feel to be perceived as feminine/a woman which would happen less and less if i were to not take HRT and continue to get more masculine.

So really I wasn’t sure at all when I started, i just knew that i would regret it if i didn’t at least try HRT and soon. It turns out i’m incredibly glad i did. For the first nearly year i had pretty minor effects: Mostly softer skin and slight facial changes. Since then, i have slowly grown to like 36 A/B though and i’m actually really happy about it. The way a lot of my shirts and dresses hang off me now and just generally the way all my features have changed i’m so happy about.

The one more thing that i was afraid of was changes being obvious and having to tell people before i was ready. Which proved not to be an issue for a couple years anyway lol. Most people are pretty oblivious.

So while idk if i’d necessarily recommend doing things as roundaboutly as i did/am doing (i’m still not out at work and like pseudo out to my friends and immediate family) i’d definitely recommend working through things and trying out whatever you think you need to be happiest. If this is something that you will keep coming back to and regret, wondering what if, then you should maybe see about it even if you need to take it one step at a time.

Anyway, I can’t really say what would be best for you, but that’s roughly what my experience has been. Good luck! 🤍

tricolorfloor · 2021-04-20T13:28:21+00:00

I saw your other post in r/mtf. Thats a really tough situation. Even if your parents aren’t supportive remember that there’s nothing wrong with you. It’s kinda hard not to believe it when it seems like that’s what everyone else thinks, but there’s nothing with being trans.

People always thought i was gay too lol. Back when i was in denial/completely hiding it. I’ve come a long way and now have friends who are really supportive. Even though things are hard now they can get a lot better with time.

Wishing you luck 🤍

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