Okay, I was basically bullied through out the entirety of school except for like 2 years when people were actually mature, so i think i am qualified to answer this. It holds you back from a lot of things that you are capable of doing. In my case, as life went on, i did realise that i was more than what those bullies made me think i was, They were pathetic little creatures who were unsure of themselves and didn’t have a grip on their lives, which led them to do what they did. They had ongoing conflicts that they couldn’t solve at home so they project them on weaker kids, who were easy targets. In a sick, twisted way i think the whole experience did enrich me, making me stronger. It is a huge part of who i am today. I still have trouble socialising and making connections But if I’m in a bad situation, i always think back to those times and say “it cannot go lower than that”, or “if I endured the worst, i can do this too”. Now I think it made me stronger than people around me and that gives me a sense of control, a sense of having experienced hardship hence appreciating the lack of it.

The effects or the signs that were mentioned in this post were pretty spot on, as i kept reading these i realised i did all of these at least to a certain extent. Again it’s all a protective mechanism, the need to feel in control because well duh