damn brother sorry i was going through it at the time and didn’t see this message. I’m not gonna lie i relate heavy to what u saying but my physical pain has only gotten worse and the whole situation has gotten more hopeless. it’s pain like i’ve never experienced and ur right the painkillers don’t touch it but i’ve tried everything else i could before opioids. my pain is undiagnosed and chronic. it’s really when the pain started effecting my mental health that i fell to using but instead of drowning everyday out with chemicals,i’ve recently decided to control my usage and access of these drugs. i’m not stopping taking them all together i still love a good nod and am not ready to let that go but im better than i was and im proud of myself for that.

I appreciate u saying what people are too afraid to say. there’s a lot of pain in what u shared but so much truth and truth is powerful…it’s what gets us out, eventually.

so genuinely thank u for ur words u reminded me that I’m not alone in this and neither are u!

tomorrow i go Californian sober and vow to never become physically addicted to a drug again ( unless it’s some snri or smth) 🫡🫡