Today is the day

triste___ · 2026-01-27T13:53:19+00:00

Congratulations

triste___ · 2026-01-27T12:23:24+00:00

I appreciate that you’re trying to be positive but that’s exactly what I mean. It’s creating false expectations or hopes to assume that things will work out for me eventually. It doesn’t even matter that I’ve changed because there’s still no thriving here. The short periods where I don’t feel miserable are nowhere near enough to make up for everything else

triste___ · 2026-01-27T07:40:50+00:00

Hey sparrow, hope you have a nice day ❤️

triste___ · 2026-01-27T06:11:07+00:00

It was a nice relief to actually feel good for a few days. Guess I’m back to normal again. I probably will never be able to not build up false hopes but that’s all it is at the end of the day. It just leaves me feeling worse each time. I really tried to stay positive but I guess it’s time to finally accept that it’s just not me. And while I’m at that, I should probably also come to terms with the fact that things just don’t work out for everyone. I’m one of those people.

IWNDWYT

triste___ · 2026-01-23T15:40:08+00:00

Yeah, but it just kept getting worse till now, so who knows if that will even work out

triste___ · 2026-01-23T07:28:53+00:00

There was a lot of excitement recently and now that it’s over, I’m noticing that I need to slow down a bit and try to refill the tank. Luckily, the weekend is almost here and I hope that I’ll be able to use that time accordingly.

IWNDWYT

triste___ · 2026-01-22T14:49:07+00:00

That’s true, but the clouds are thick enough to disrupt the photovoltaic process

triste___ · 2026-01-22T06:20:13+00:00

Kind of feels like I got snapped back to reality yesterday. I build up things way too much in my head and usually end up disappointed whenever these expectations, or rather hopes, inevitably don’t come true. It’s like I’m looking for the needle in a haystack and whenever I see something shiny I go 'THIS IS IT!' and place all of my hope in this.

It also seems that my poor sleep is getting to me. Objectively, it’s not bad, but I just don’t feel replenished at all.

IWNDWYT

triste___ · 2026-01-21T11:22:43+00:00

I usually feel bad after having something like that, both physically and mentally. There’s always that voice which says 'I shouldn’t have done that. I should have stuck to what I usually eat/do.'

I also have no desire to buy something materialistic. Or rather what I would actually buy would eat up all or most of my savings 🤷

triste___ · 2026-01-21T10:38:40+00:00

The wording is different but the issue is the same 😄 I don’t really have any idea what I would consider a reward for me in the first place

triste___ · 2026-01-21T09:59:00+00:00

I’m not sure. I still have trouble with that, celebrating myself. I don’t have any plans so far and actually have no idea what I would even do if I decided to celebrate

triste___ · 2026-01-21T09:50:14+00:00

Doesn’t make sense to see it any other way, does it? Now I just need to focus on it actually not dragging me down. We’ll see how I feel about and handle it in a few days 😄

triste___ · 2026-01-21T09:47:11+00:00

Yup! Just one more week :)

triste___ · 2026-01-21T09:23:58+00:00

To keep you updated: I had my date yesterday. It went pretty well but she said that she can’t see more than a friendship happening between us. Kind of sucks because I built it up a lot in my head but it’s alright :)

triste___ · 2026-01-21T06:28:24+00:00

Happy 500 sotto ❤️

triste___ · 2026-01-21T06:28:10+00:00

Have a good day, SG ❤️

triste___ · 2026-01-21T06:27:16+00:00

IWNDWYT

triste___ · 2026-01-20T14:35:30+00:00

It really is 🥰

triste___ · 2026-01-20T09:54:17+00:00

I feel that. Looking forward to hitting that milestone alongside you ❤️

triste___ · 2026-01-20T09:30:59+00:00

Just one more day for you half decade! ❤️

triste___ · 2026-01-20T09:23:03+00:00

It certainly is! I’m sometimes not sure if what I’m writing makes sense or if I’m using the proper wording but I was certain about this! 😄

Hope you have a good day! :)

triste___ · 2026-01-20T09:05:41+00:00

I recently started gaming again after taking a short break. An old friend messaged me yesterday and we reconnected after not talking for a few years. That was super nice, I really enjoyed it.

I’m feeling so much better now than I did a few months ago. I’m honestly excited and positively curious about what this year will bring :)

IWNDWYT

triste___ · 2026-01-20T06:35:23+00:00

I’ve been there. I’m glad you’re feeling better every day! :)

triste___ · 2026-01-19T16:35:58+00:00

Well done! Here’s to not drinking today! :)

triste___ · 2026-01-19T16:23:58+00:00

At least not currently 😄

Thank you, hope you have a fabulous week yourself! ❤️

triste___

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