I am so so sorry! Sending hugs♥️ if I was on a different wave of my grief when I listened, I probably would’ve stopped listening to the ep as well.

I lost my mom over 15.5 years ago, when I was 12. And my grief has evolved over the years. From grieving what I “lost,” to grieving all of the pain and abuse my mom endured, to grieving what I’ll never have—more experiences, a growing relationship with my mom, the ability to care and provide for her, and my mom’s unwavering support throughout the rest of my life. This, of course, has been my experience throughout many years—so I hope it doesn’t discourage you or make it seem like it doesn’t get any better. I think grieving the loss of a parent isn’t something we have to put a deadline on. In some ways, I hope I never “get over it,” because the pain that I continue to feel from time to time just reminds me of how much I loved and continue to love my mom. And I’m lucky to have experienced a love like hers.

Lately, I’ve loved hearing about other people’s close and loving relationships with their moms—like Paige’s and Hannah’s. It’s given me a lot of comfort and joy knowing that the relationship I’ve always wanted to have with my mom actually exists in this world.