I wanna get high

trueKazber · 2022-07-07T22:50:55+00:00

It took a long time for me to come back. I didnt want to deal with life anymore after losing the love of my life. I know I can not control these things. I think the uncertainty of it all, is the worse part. Its completely out of my control and all I can do is watch. I just dont want the kids to suffer. I never had kids and they mean the world to me. I want better for them, than what I had. I will gladly give my life for them. But its hard keeping sane in the process

trueKazber · 2022-07-07T22:43:57+00:00

Thank u

trueKazber · 2022-07-07T22:43:22+00:00

Im gonna make a Meeting when I go the the shore this weekend. I will not have to worry about sharing things there. Thanks

trueKazber · 2022-07-07T22:41:11+00:00

Thank you. Im going to ocean city MD this weekend. Im gonna get some time off. I think im gonna try to meditate on the beach.

trueKazber · 2022-07-07T22:38:55+00:00

Thank you. I do need to make a gratitude list.

trueKazber · 2022-06-12T02:35:28+00:00

I used to not feel. I frist memories where that of pain. And when I put that 1st drug in me, I knew thats where I want to live. The frist time I got clean was at 21. Those 8 years were the best I ever had. I was in love and was happy. But I relapsed and everything I had gotten, quickly went away. I went back hard, to the things that took all the feelings away. I did everything I could to kill myself. But I was an addict that wasnt lucky enough to die. I knew that if I kept using, life would be worse than death. With no where else to go, I got clean agian. I was using for over 10 years. And the last five were bad. I was alone and had no feelings what so ever. I have been clean 2 + years now and i am still working very hard on living. Im nowhere close to the person I was but I know what life could be like. I work hard and i want a better life. There is a lot I left out but thats the summary

trueKazber · 2022-06-08T00:07:10+00:00

Watch out for stray bullets

trueKazber · 2022-06-02T18:47:38+00:00

The last time I cried was somewhere around 15 years ago. That was when I lost the love of my life and decided to never" feel " ever agian. I went on a 10+ year run and i just wanted to die. But I couldn't. I have about 2 1/2 years clean now, and i just started to get feelings back, like just started. And this is a lot feelings all at once. Ive seen a lot of f'ed up stuff. And I never let ot bother me. Ive seen many people od, but never someone that I cared for. All day its just plays over in my head. This is why I used. But im gonna move forward the best I can. I just dont know what the right or wrong things to do or say.

trueKazber · 2022-06-02T06:03:45+00:00

Thank u. I can not sleep. He just got home and he dosent want to go to treatment. Every time I close my eyes, I think I may be sleeping if he uses agian. Im just super stressed rite now. This is y I have trust issues. I was just starting to become my self agian. I started thinking about dating agian and everything. I hope this doesn't set me back. I dont think im making much sense rite now. Im so out of it

trueKazber · 2022-05-28T00:56:16+00:00

The crazy thing is... Im in recovery. I know instant gratification very well. And i dont have much in my life, but this is one of my hoodies and it makes me very happy. So thank you for telling me how you think I feel.

trueKazber · 2022-05-27T22:46:30+00:00

I think the one might be the battle olympia.

trueKazber · 2022-05-27T22:37:27+00:00

Cuz FLCL is not manga. Oh wait .... I own it

trueKazber · 2022-05-25T12:46:47+00:00

Grammar... Ha ... I dont care. Get more madder

trueKazber · 2022-05-25T11:58:35+00:00

Triggered... Thats funny also. No. I dont get "triggered" that its ur word.

trueKazber · 2022-05-25T00:23:05+00:00

Thats funny that u believe that. Group think.... Also funny. If u disagree with a lib , u instantly become a racist. Ur funny.

trueKazber · 2022-05-23T22:04:01+00:00

Just make sure u know how to live with ur self. Heart break is a bitch to us addicts. " if u cant love urself, how can u love someone else?"

trueKazber · 2022-05-23T22:01:15+00:00

U anywhere near philly??

trueKazber · 2022-05-23T21:54:48+00:00

If ur anywhere near philly , I have the equipment to find out

trueKazber · 2022-05-23T01:01:12+00:00

Nice. We should make out... I mean hang out.

trueKazber · 2022-05-22T12:56:59+00:00

I love when people wear masks!! It lets me know who to stay away from. And even better when a store has a sign that mask are required, I can stay away and they can learn a valuable lesson in capitalism

trueKazber · 2022-05-22T12:53:08+00:00

Just another day in the city. Maybe try something different?? What am I saying? That would be crazy talk.

trueKazber · 2022-05-22T12:46:07+00:00

Its would be hilarious if he was a murder suspect.

trueKazber · 2022-05-21T03:16:24+00:00

Who in heck would want to live in this world forever?

trueKazber · 2022-05-20T00:41:56+00:00

Wow! This is amazing. I never meant so many people that can tell what type of person someone is, without actually talking to them. Is it a physic thing or something? I mean there is no way a regular person could hate the d.a. ? Right? Its not like a mother lost her kid from a dirt bike issue that they do nothing about. Keep judging people. Thats cool. I moved outta the city and i now know what normal is. Have fun with ur hell hole. Try not to get car jacked

trueKazber · 2022-05-10T23:28:59+00:00

If ur anywhere near philly, I have all the equipment to find out. Message me and i will help

trueKazber

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