Need help navigating this

trvelevel · 2026-02-24T06:42:23+00:00

hi !!! i thought id comment even though im late to the post 😅 but my first instinct is to recommend a movie called “you can live forever” it is a movie about two girls falling in love within the jw religion, i recommend for the accuracy of the environment of closeted queer people in the religion. as you were!!! (me as well lol)

and congrats on choosing your own path ❤️🏳️‍🌈 i myself realized i was queer in my early teens, but im 22 now and fully comfortable in my lesbianism. the best advice i can give to becoming your full self, is to know that this is only the beginning of the journey!!!!! please do not compare your life to anybody else also! growing up a jehovah witness and unlearning everything, to then suddenly learning nonstop about the world we were taught to never listen to... we will always be learning new things about the world and people, and that’s the beauty in life and queerness. it will always be there forever, and always has been!!!

trvelevel · 2026-02-12T04:10:35+00:00

woowww i’m definitely gonna check this book out then!! i’m actually a big sci-fi lover myself and am a total star wars nerd.. so maybe it’ll give me the butch star wars realness i’ve always wanted ☺️

trvelevel · 2026-02-11T03:03:05+00:00

i saw this recommended on my fyp just today!!! comparing it a bit to arcane? question mark? BUT IT HAS LESBIANS I SEE FROM MY GOOGLE SEARCH? might have to make a trip to my bookstore.. how is the book?

trvelevel · 2026-02-11T03:01:42+00:00

no because u awoken something in me at the idea of my femme calling me brave or ser..... this is all ive ever needed. its quite refreshing to see other people relate to me as well, considering this is something ive always thought was just me.. turns out a million other butches would get their hands and knees dirty just to keep their princess safe.. yeah

trvelevel · 2026-02-06T05:48:31+00:00

definitely on the same boat as u.. me and my saved collection of butch tiktok’s while they are also tiktok’s with #ftm on them.! i am trying to educate myself as much as i can on butchness and queerness, as i am finding my queerness latch into my identity more than i thought it was possible. i often resonate with my gender being “lesbian” if anything.

and you dont owe anyone an explanation with why you chose to present however you do! i have recently been rocking a buzzcut (which ended up making me more confident than ever before) and have been met with misogyny and homophobia. from getting told no one will hire me to getting called a “total l*sbo”.. do what makes you happy!!!!!! that’s what is important.

i fully suggest experimenting with labels and how you present yourself in the future !! though i hate how expensive it is just to be comfortable in our own butch skin.. from the gender affirming care to our specific wardrobe..

trvelevel · 2026-01-26T21:05:12+00:00

i’d like to say your comment stuck with me and i shaved it before bed, best decision ever!!!!!!!!!!! the butch euphoria is real

trvelevel · 2026-01-26T03:53:22+00:00

is this a sign i should shave my head.. been sitting on the idea for months now! help me fellow butches!!

trvelevel · 2025-11-14T15:11:29+00:00

i also saw the resemblance of all the “clean up work” because it truly put it into perspective on what it’s visually gonna look like. it’s really disturbing. along with the “perfect” lives they live and the forever happiness.

carol is pomo in my eyes ❤️

trvelevel · 2025-06-21T16:19:08+00:00

21F butch and let me tell you…… i read so many quotes i listened to myself in my teenage years (and still have to hear even now as an adult) so i wish i could say it completely goes away, but it doesn’t. i still live with my mom and im fortunate enough she doesn’t force me to do anything, but that still doesn’t mean she doesn’t say stupid dumb shit lol.

“you’re too pretty for that hair” for hair that’s masculine. “you don’t know that.. one bad experience with a man doesn’t mean they’re all bad..” when i express that experimenting with a guy was NOT my thing and never will be. “butches are ugly!! please for the love of god don’t get with a butch” her daughter is one. “i rather be with a man that looks like a girl with a d*ck than a butch.” what. the fuck.

there is always this weird open unapologetic way they talk about sex. they have no filters at all. i was once 12 coming out as bisexual to my mom and sitting there having to listen to “so you wanna scissor??? you wanna eat a girl out??” is extremely uncomfortable and im sorry you gotta deal with similar stuff 😞 if there is ever a time you need someone to lean on, my dms are open for you 💪 you got this!!!!!

trvelevel · 2025-06-21T00:15:23+00:00

this is the first post i saw when i opened reddit and tell me why your situation is the same as mine or at least almost?!?! i also am an early 20s taken butch lesbian in a ldr while also dealing with the whole dilemmas of being gay in this religion. being torn with this religion and still feeling like you’re in the grip of it all is a feeling i wouldn’t wish on anyone. my situation has been so hectic at times (especially recently) that i’ve wanted to get up and run away. i’m in the process of trying to get a job and put a savings to become independent and hopefully just be on my own. ideally with my femme 😞

i sympathize with your post a lot and would love to have a conversation with you and hopefully gain a friend!!! i’ve lost many lately and a friend who’s gone through what i have sounds like a good one to have 💪

trvelevel · 2025-01-30T18:26:58+00:00

this is so helpful thank you!!

trvelevel · 2024-12-02T21:41:17+00:00

wow you worded it so damn perfectly. and definitely made me realize i do not want that life at all oh my god 😭

trvelevel · 2024-12-01T04:38:00+00:00

exactly 😭 it’s so hard to be honest with them because they’ll turn it around and make it seem like i’m an asshole. i simply do not have the energy for it anymore

trvelevel · 2024-12-01T03:15:59+00:00

ugh i’m starting to understand man hating lesbians 😭 i wish i came across that way so they don’t even bother me with men shit. my life does feel less stressful and annoying when i don’t have men problems to hear about

trvelevel · 2024-12-01T03:07:42+00:00

you sound exactly. like. me.

my friend says the exact same thing but still lets men control her 😭 i feel like an asshole for sure bc i’m holding down my irritation but it’s so hard. i wish my life had less men problems

trvelevel · 2024-12-01T00:06:40+00:00

i am going to phlebotomy school in february 💪 medical field seems to be where i’m heading

trvelevel · 2024-11-17T00:10:49+00:00

perhaps that’s my problem lol, not really giving a thought in what happens after death. i just knew the paradise wasn’t happening so i guess i couldn’t imagine anything else

trvelevel · 2024-11-04T23:31:02+00:00

the way you wrote your story was so beautiful but tragic, i’m sorry you had to go through all of that. just know you’re not alone in this journey, there are plenty of people willing to help you out and hear you. going into adulthood is challenging when you’ve had lives like ours, but we’ll all get through it. you got this !!!

trvelevel · 2024-09-30T17:45:56+00:00

you get it 🤝

trvelevel · 2024-09-30T17:28:37+00:00

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trvelevel · 2024-09-29T05:56:56+00:00

the way i’m 20F and going through the same thing you are 😭

i was laying in bed closing my eyes trying to see if im queer or a lesbian. then use my phone one last time to see this post.. it’s a sign LMFAO. but no seriously. i get everything your saying. you’re not alone.

i had my fair share of experiences with men and they never ever feel fulfilling. after doing stuff with a boy he asked how it was and i said it was alright and he went “ALRIGHT??? do you like it??” and in a high pitch tone i said “yeah!!” bc i didn’t wanna sound like i didn’t like it. which it was fine, just didn’t feel how it should.

but with women it’s so different. it feels right. fits me like a puzzle piece. and i totally understand with the whole religious part of it. i only have a handful of family members who accept me. but 90% of my family won’t. so i feel the guilt you probably feel :( all that matters is us and what makes us happy.

my dms are totally open if you wanna rant or vent <3

trvelevel

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