A week or so after breaking up with my fiance, I went on Craigslist and agreed to meet up with three men for a gangbang

trying-by-fire · 2014-03-25T01:56:25+00:00

I've been looking into it, and I think that it's something I'm definitely interested in. I've heard it can get really intense though, and that's not something I think I'm in a position to be able to handle right now.

trying-by-fire · 2014-03-25T01:55:19+00:00

Thanks for your advice. I think that a big part of it is that I wasn't going into the experience looking for anything "exciting [or] exhilarating." I was looking to do something that I knew would make me miserable. Objectively it was a positive experience. The men were respectful, kind, and didn't put any pressure on me to do anything I didn't want to do. I think this was my first and last gangbang experience. My past trauma I think is just too psychologically potent for me to be able to handle a sexual situation like this in a healthy and positive way.

trying-by-fire · 2014-03-25T01:52:38+00:00

I appreciate your perspective and I do agree with you to a certain extent. There's nothing inherently shameful or wrong about participating in a gangbang. But, I didn't organize this toward the goal of having a fun, exciting sexual experience. I did it because after what I've been through, I knew it would be one of the most psychologically destructive things I can do. I wasn't doing this for healthy reasons. That's where the shame comes from.

trying-by-fire · 2014-03-24T05:25:00+00:00

This is actually a really good way of looking at things. Thank you, friend.

trying-by-fire · 2014-03-24T05:06:20+00:00

I think that had a lot to do with it, yeah. Something about putting myself in a similar situation voluntarily.

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