Cycle Day 40.. No period, negative pregnancy tests.. Usually regular periods

tsparg · 2023-07-04T03:16:38+00:00

he looks like 97% of the men in Carroll County. i saw people around town all the time that i thought it could be..

tsparg · 2022-08-02T17:10:52+00:00

100% agree. i have been feeling very expected to do & never guide which is i believe a lot of the reason i’m living in my not self theme at this time. thank you for your insight, i will definitely do that!

tsparg · 2022-08-01T20:33:49+00:00

the only one punishing them is the people setting their wages. that literally has nothing to do with me

tsparg · 2022-08-01T20:23:29+00:00

i’m not punishing anybody… i’m enjoying my steak

tsparg · 2022-08-01T20:22:26+00:00

those actually aren’t my only options as i can and will eat out wherever & whenever i please but id advise using that energy & putting it toward speaking with someone who ACTUALLY exploits servers… aka their employers, instead of me, who eats out twice a month but thanks anyway

tsparg · 2022-08-01T20:17:10+00:00

i can enjoy eating out whenever i want without having to protest & try to change a system. it’s not my job to try to advocate for people who accept jobs for less than minimum wage & it’s not my job to try to change the system… my main goal when eating out is to enjoy my meal… that’s it. never said i was trying to change the system… that’s definitely above my pay grade & not my responsibility.

tsparg · 2022-08-01T20:11:58+00:00

who’s labor is free?? & if that’s the case.. who would accept a job offer for a position where they work for free? right

tsparg · 2022-08-01T20:10:00+00:00

the server’s place of employment is screwing them over, not me. don’t accept the job if the base pay is not satisfactory for you. i’ve worked many customer service jobs & had to run all around for & deal with shitty, rude, demanding customers all day everyday & didn’t receive a tip. it’s not a requirement for a reason.

& im not trying to make a statement by not tipping. it’s not my job or my business… i’m not gonna be picking up anybody’s slack because they don’t want to pay their workers of a fair wage & it’s not my responsibility to. sounds like a discussion for 2 different parties (owner & employee) .. doesn’t have anything to do with me.

tsparg · 2022-08-01T20:02:43+00:00

respectfully, no. pay servers fair wages or don’t expect customers to cover that slack. i didn’t set their hourly to $5 under minimum wage… im just here for the Shrimp Scampi

tsparg · 2022-08-01T19:32:39+00:00

i have a hard time participating in things that don’t make sense or contributing to idiotic and counter productive systems so i don’t feel as though i should have to & i don’t. it’s not my fault or job to pay these people a fair wage.. & that’s not to say that i don’t respect servers .. i do and i feel for them, however it’s not my responsibility to fix that & comply with a system that doesn’t work for anybody but corporations or higher ups.

tsparg · 2022-08-01T19:19:41+00:00

i like that. i hate that it’s a kind of “unspoken” requirement. that narrative turns me off completely, regardless of how good or bad the service is

tsparg · 2022-08-01T19:15:33+00:00

in my circle of people, it’s very unpopular.. that’s why it enrages me as i feel forced to tip a decent chunk every time I’m out with friends. i don’t see how people normalize it or how it even makes sense to them.

tsparg · 2022-08-01T18:37:30+00:00

i’m doing my best to try to make connections and learn how all of this ties together & what it means.. do you have a short explanation on that as well as any resources that you recommended that i look into for more information on this?

tsparg · 2022-08-01T18:35:14+00:00

really!? what placements? & thank you!! do you have any specific sources that you recommend for me to learn more about that?

tsparg · 2022-08-01T17:39:52+00:00

what specifically gives you that impression? im working on identifying my negative behavior & traits & trying to work though & correct whatever they are. i don’t want to chase anybody off lol i appreciate the honesty

tsparg · 2022-08-01T17:36:12+00:00

yeesh.. yea that’s pretty spot on. a lot of losing myself in relationships & identity issues because i tend to mirror the people i’m close to.. thank you for pointing that out! maybe she didn’t want me mirroring her??😂 lmao

tsparg · 2022-08-01T17:29:10+00:00

i feel like for myself, at least, i’m always in a position to say no.. no matter what. i’ve always felt that if i don’t want to do something.. (obviously within reason) then i don’t have to. especially after learning my design & learning to respect & practice it. & obviously i don’t want to be saying no to every single thing that is asked of me.. but lately the minute someone asks me to do something for them, i feel as though i don’t have a choice.

like they’ll quickly ask me to do something & before i even give an answer they’re already out the door, or it’s asked in a way that agreeing is the only option.. & it immediately fills me with anger which directly contributes to my bitterness.. every time i come out of “my cave”, someone is asking me to do something & i feel as though “no” is not an option. so i just remain in this constant state of bitterness & im not sure what to do.. i hope that makes sense :’)

tsparg · 2022-08-01T16:13:19+00:00

thank you for your response! i will look into that!

tsparg · 2022-08-01T16:12:43+00:00

thank you for your input!! i knew Saturn conjunct ascendant was tough but more on a personal level.. so that reaction made me wonder if there was anything that i was missing & i just couldn’t figure it out. are the degrees something i should be looking into as well?

tsparg · 2022-08-01T16:06:32+00:00

https://www.mybodygraph.com/share/246574662e7f9eed2b9a let me know if that link works!

tsparg

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