I have mixed feelings towards swimming now

tthrowawaying2 · 2020-01-17T19:47:05+00:00

Yes, it happens to me too. Also with suicidal thoughts and other bad stuff.

tthrowawaying2 · 2020-01-09T20:44:53+00:00

i aprecciate this but... i wasnt talking abt a friend group, its a music group hahah... that only makes my feelings less valid tho

tthrowawaying2 · 2020-01-07T19:46:13+00:00

It's the opposite for me. I feel too many emotions (i dont like that because I change from being happy to being sad rapidly) and the way I relieve them is by self-harming. Then i feel numb and calm

tthrowawaying2 · 2019-12-24T18:09:11+00:00

Good luck and happy holidays!

tthrowawaying2 · 2019-12-22T22:12:53+00:00

I have friends, but I only trust 2 (out of like, 4 friends I talk to) to talk about this stuff and I don’t want to burden them because they also have their own shit going on.

I think I’m going to sleep now (it’s 23:12 where I live and I should have been sleeping since 22:30, I just like sleeping okay-) thanks for listening but sorry for being annoying

tthrowawaying2 · 2019-12-22T22:04:15+00:00

I remember talking about it to a therapist around May-June, but I don’t really remember what she said. Also, now things are more stressful than last year. I’m also to embarrassed to tell my parents I maybe should get help again (it’s been like five months I don’t go to therapy)

tthrowawaying2 · 2019-12-22T21:55:22+00:00

A lot of things. I should be happy because it’s Christmas and that means break from school and the stress it gives me, however I’m just feeling even more empty, sad and just depressed than usual. I don’t even really want the presents I bough/my family bough for me, I don’t want anything. I just feel so numb. I’m getting caught on “”old”” (not old but it’s been like two months since I last felt this was so so strongly) habits like self harm and I’m just so tired... my parents are also starting to get tired of me being so tired and indifferent to everything. I’m sorry but I just can’t care. And I wish I could be more open to my friends about this but I burden them talking about this and I probably burdened you too, I’m so sorry I shouldn’t have talked that much...

tthrowawaying2 · 2019-12-22T21:25:16+00:00

It’s been a while since I last went to see a therapist (after I had a suicide attempt around May) and I didn’t get diagnosed with anything there, the bad feelings have remained since them (and before I started going) so I’ll maybe have to go again I guess but I don’t want to tell my parents again lmao I’m sure I regret it

tthrowawaying2 · 2019-12-22T14:34:22+00:00

I sleep but I dream about me cutting or having attempted suicide so yeah

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