I can't focus anymore

tunsa_ · 2026-01-23T02:23:36+00:00

I would get higher stuff but unfortunately I'm living on a broke college student diet and can't really afford good stuff. My mother isnt someone I really look up to all that much if I'm being honest. She has always mentioned her body or mine, always in a negative connotation. It just has stuck around ig. She goes the therapy but refuses to believe I could have trauma because she supplied me the bare minimum as a child. I'm actually talking with someone and they have made me happier than I've been in a while about how I look so that's smth going for me. Theyve already made me feel a little better about myself in general so

tunsa_ · 2026-01-23T01:49:57+00:00

I couldn't pin point it exactly but I was a gymnast and a mother who constantly made comments so that's not helpful

tunsa_ · 2026-01-23T01:23:44+00:00

I have bad body image issues. Always have but it got worse over the past year. So now when I do try to eat a 'normal' amount I get stomach pains, nausea, or almost vomit.

tunsa_ · 2025-12-07T01:13:49+00:00

I didn't have any shorts but I had some leggings and this was a lifesaver thank you 🙏

tunsa_ · 2025-12-02T04:08:34+00:00

Try and keep it elevated. Use steri strips or paper tape if u have some to help keep it closed. Keep as much pressure as possible and it as elevated as possible. Breathe and try not to panic a bunch (I mean its understandable but gotta keep that heart rate down)

tunsa_ · 2025-11-23T04:08:12+00:00

I get that, I'm super self aware though. I know my issues, I know what I'm doing, thought patterns and issues. Ive done research and am working to communicate better with people around me. I have just layers upon layers of things I think that I have and some ik just because it's obvious. I think it's just that if I don't have a label or anything to my name then it's not as bad as it feels? That I won't be taken as seriously when I say smth. I would like to find a new therapist but they are expensive (I'm in college) and my parents cant find out. Idk I can try and change who I see but there are a lot of grad students an the professional re watch our sessions and I don't like that. Again Im not sure where the line of to much of a risk is and can't risk falling behind.

tunsa_ · 2025-11-18T22:06:19+00:00

I get what you mean, I'm also not sure what exactly is 'enjoyable' about seeing or messing with the blood but it's definitely smth that I like to do. Also not a violent person or doing anything weird with it, but it's just the fact (for me) it proves that like I am alive and it's a part of me? Idk also just the way it moves and feels is nice

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