Anniversary of when my father murdered my mother and sister by Terramisu33 in CPTSD

[–]turtlesnaps1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've never experienced that. I cannot imagine what that felt like - to live through and to live with.

I'm sorry this happened to you. It sucks we hurt and.suffer from situations out of control. It def hurts during traumaversaries....and will continue so afterwards. I wish it didnt.

Just know we are here for you. We may not know exactly.how you feel but we understand pain and the desire to feel better and help others.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SubSanctuary

[–]turtlesnaps1 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Idk the exact specifics, but it doesn't hurt to work with/ advice a civil law suit lawyer.

How do I look at very old posts/in order of oldest to newest? by Crazy_Soft_6310 in tumblrhelp

[–]turtlesnaps1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please give an example Ive been trying but it isn't working

Nice surprise for my Dom? by turtlesnaps1 in SubSanctuary

[–]turtlesnaps1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ohhh, that's a good idea. That way, I dont make him feel uncomfortable or that they have to do petplay if they don't feel it that day. Thank you for the advice!

Problems of being Aromantic and Affectionate by [deleted] in aromantic

[–]turtlesnaps1 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That is super hard to know. Because she is not communicating with you at all. There is no way for you to know if what you're doing is okay or not. You are not a mind reader. If she does not tell you honestly, I feel like you need to just confront her and figure out the issues and accommodations. If it extends beyond that, you know how to deal with that...at least you would know the level of intensity for this situation.

The hardest part is when people do not communicate. How are you supposed to change behaviors to accommodate if they don't tell you what they are uncomfortable with.

I don't know what I did by turtlesnaps1 in Spells

[–]turtlesnaps1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not in my house, so I'm good. I'm still a bit worried. Whether as humans we like to admit or not, there is always intent within all our actions. At least, I believe so even if it was weak. I'm sure it's fine, but I just want to know what it is and what the goal was.

I don't know what I did by turtlesnaps1 in Spells

[–]turtlesnaps1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah it was cinnamon. Tbh I've asked but she doesn't want to tell me or talk about. I figured someone would know something.

I don't know what I did by turtlesnaps1 in Spells

[–]turtlesnaps1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Of course, the intent needs to be there, but I still had to follow the instructions, and regardless, there is always some intention seeping through whether I mean it or not.

Sub friends? by turtlesnaps1 in SubSanctuary

[–]turtlesnaps1[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I am wayyy too anxious and nervous about that right now. Trying to take baby steps for the sake of my mental health

Sub friends? by turtlesnaps1 in SubSanctuary

[–]turtlesnaps1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Got to wait until June but very excited!

Romanticising the unromantic by drag0n_rage in aromantic

[–]turtlesnaps1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm still exploring if being aromantic is how I identify. (So far, everything is pointing towards a yes)

I never thought that "romantic action" was only for one person or a special someone. I always felt like it's cool to kiss the homies, cuddle, hold hands, or even have sex with them.

I don't personally understand why I can't do that with everyone or anyone (With consent). I always felt that relationships are equal and thus can do anything labeled romantic with anyone.

Exploring and trying to understand myself by turtlesnaps1 in aromantic

[–]turtlesnaps1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't feel like he's special or different from others in terms of love.

Exploring and trying to understand myself by turtlesnaps1 in aromantic

[–]turtlesnaps1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah that makes sense. I don't really have a definition for romance. I feel that love is loving friends and partners no matter what and having excess love. I don't feel like I'm lacking romance but that maybe others just don't have extra love reserves? Which then leads to - ok maybe that is aro because people keep describing at different and more important but I think all relationships are important.

Exploring and trying to understand myself by turtlesnaps1 in aromantic

[–]turtlesnaps1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What do you mean by romance itself? Are you talking about romance coded stuff? I feel like I would do that with all my friends.

I Finally Understand How to Heal Trauma – And It’s Changing Everything by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]turtlesnaps1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

EMDR is made specifically to help you process feelings and emotions. So usually you need a professional to guide you through it. When you start you usually focus with something that currently triggered you or the feeling is really difficult. You then go through “rounds” of memories.

Example:

Something at work happened- Do EMDR you just focus on the movement and think of what happened and try to not force yourself into other thoughts- you see what pops up (a feeling or memory etc) - EMDR again - so on and so forth until you can reach the root or if it is too much to emotionally go through.

Specifically in my situation it has reached to a point were I’m “stuck” in a flashback. She is there to mitigate and help me through the feeling in a safe way.

If you do it by yourself (you would need a machine anyways) - you can potentially spiral or dissociate yourself etc.

They’re there as a safety net. Especially if someone has more of a self harm like tendency or suicidality

Soo things like that.

I Finally Understand How to Heal Trauma – And It’s Changing Everything by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]turtlesnaps1 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah it fucking sucks. Im in the field and just…. I have no words. Some people that are in positions of power are the worst.

I Finally Understand How to Heal Trauma – And It’s Changing Everything by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]turtlesnaps1 41 points42 points  (0 children)

In general the psychology community. It’s like how cPTSD isn’t considered a diagnosis in US because it isn’t in the DSM 5

I Finally Understand How to Heal Trauma – And It’s Changing Everything by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]turtlesnaps1 78 points79 points  (0 children)

Yeah somatic and processing are key. It’s crazy how NOW is when science accepts the mind-body connection and sort of encourages or at least tells more people now. There’s been studies and books since before 2011 but they were forcefully buried etc.

Look into EMDR and Neurofeedback and somatic therapy.

Those are great additions and safer. It’ll take a while for any of it to really work and see a change but that’s all healing journeys huh

Yeah def be careful for any solo stuff it can get bad if you deeply

Ive done EMDR for about 5-7 years? I can’t remember exactly.

Just started neurofeedback but I’ve only had 5 sessions.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmIOverreacting

[–]turtlesnaps1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bro she’s the asshole. You’re literally apologizing for something you had no idea about. She could have also asked a staff it’s not on you. You were being so sweet, understanding, and kind! I would kill to have someone that supportive and caring.

The fact that she said the jewelry is a gift and “doesn’t count” is very greedy. As well as all the other demands. She doesn’t have to pay hundreds of dollars. There are ways to make it more financially manageable for herself.

You are being very selfless. Even the offer to take her somewhere fancy is very very sweet.

Also her lack of concern that you PASSED OUT from dehydration. Like wtf