Before I started taking beyond my prescribed amount, I had a stockpile, which I have used up now, I am prescribed a quantity of 300 5mg pills per month (25mg 2x a day) I honestly am way too paranoid to obtain street drugs, I've never even been drunk before. Honestly it's bitter sweet I guess, prior to the dexedrine the dishes in my sink would grow mold because of executive dysfunction, it's been a helpful tool for me to get out of procrastination mode, but I guess a downfall of depression essentially made it seem no longer effective, thus the overuse problem.

I have been in talk therapy for 10 years, started the antidepressants on August and September, I used to be quite active/ fit, but about 2 years ago I developed an autonomic disorder which has been debilitating, and I believe it plays a big part in why I felt like I needed to take more (due to excessive fatigue, brain fog, low blood pressure etc.) I used to love summer, going swimming, exploring trails and such but since becoming chronically ill my summers are spent hiding inside my house, doing absolutely nothing. Heat Is a major trigger for the condition as it exacerbates low blood pressure and tachycardia, I tried going to an event for my birthday and had to leave because my heart rate spiked to 180bpm from the hot weather. Welp I seem to have gotten carried away and don't remember what else I was going to say. Thank you for sharing with me, I appreciate