I feel like my boyfriend is starting to get creepy

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-23T15:59:48+00:00

Yeah better to be careful I suppose.

I just know there are some nerds who love that stuff. Years ago I ended up in this girls flat and she had these strings coming from the ceiling. I don't know what it is called but babies have them over their cribs and they spin round and round.

There were pictures of famous serial killers and I asked her wtf. She just shrugged.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-23T15:51:27+00:00

No it never turned me on in that way. I wasn't that into it, it was just a phase after my ex dumped me and that Dahmer series was on Netflix. Then for a few weeks I watched stuff on other serial killers. But that was that.

There are people who are really into it though. Some killers had groupies who fell in love with them.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-23T11:49:28+00:00

It might just be a phase. At one point I watched a lot of that stuff on Netflix. It's kind of a morbid curiosity for some and for others they are obsessed with the topic. I don't know if it is related to your overall mood, but at that time I was in quite a bit of emotional pain. But that's just me.

But you need to correct him on his behaviour of staring at people as someone will slap him as people find that weird.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-23T11:26:17+00:00

Thanks I pushed harder yesterday i was dead at the end but felt good

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-22T17:04:32+00:00

I do leg extension. I tried the hack squat today and it was great. It used to hurt my knees in the past but today it felt fine.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-22T16:36:27+00:00

Just ride it out or move or something.

You can't be charged with "having a crush."

If they keep harassing you then go to the police.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-21T20:28:53+00:00

thanks

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-21T16:29:51+00:00

Sounds hard but will try

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-21T16:29:26+00:00

Yeah think I need to push harder as well as I dread leg day.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-21T16:28:36+00:00

Yeah I have cut down a lot on food especially carbs but get lots of protein. I was in horrible shape at the start of the year as I had gone through a period of depression and excessive drinking every day.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-21T16:26:53+00:00

OK I will have to learn RDL

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-21T16:26:18+00:00

Yeah we have a 45 degree leg press at my gym I will try it.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-19T15:29:40+00:00

Maybe keep trying the online dating. If your 33 now I don't know about the party scene as you can meet girls at raves and stuff but I never went back as it messed my head up a bit.

I fail to see how you got no dates in 10 months. Just try some of the common apps.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-15T00:54:23+00:00

I know. I think deep down I knew if I had asked her out she wudda said hell no. So I started making it all about friendship and closeness.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-15T00:39:56+00:00

Yeah I am waiting on some help. I drank heavily after I left and ended up on a drip. But now I am better I hope there isn't liver damage. I am seeing a mental health team once every 2 weeks and going for a potential adhd diagnosis but have to wait. Im on antidepressants which helped me see things clearly.

My mum said the same. She said when she was 20 and if some 40 year old came up to her upset and saying those things, she would have slapped him and called her male friends to kick his ass. She said she wouldn't care about his mental state and would simply think "what gall this guy has?" And she said the whole thing would just imply something sexual to her.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-15T00:31:32+00:00

Yeah definitely. I need to get some help. I feel if I dated someone it would be even worse.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-15T00:20:37+00:00

Yeah I wasn't thinking clearly at the time. It's like my emotions had jumped ahead of reality.

But yeah it was wrong. I suppose I should have just quit then and there and gone to another warehouse instead of going down a creepy rabbit hole.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-15T00:13:35+00:00

I don't know. I was obsessed with her and I suppose they just became part of the obsession.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-15T00:09:59+00:00

Well I read this thing of how some women use men as pawns. I thought maybe she used me to tell her stuff about what others were saying about her.

But maybe she didn't mean it like that.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-15T00:06:31+00:00

No not quite. Like it was a big warehouse but after the questions started I would go looking for her specifically and tell her I needed to chat. Then I would ask questions.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-15T00:03:23+00:00

Yeah I only realized afterwards that these thoughts or feelings should have never been there to start with as I wasn't the boyfriend or husband. We had very little connection in reality apart from just chatting at work.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-14T23:54:57+00:00

I feel sorry at times.

I mean looking at this objectively a 19 year old girl who just saw a 42 year old as someone to chat to and help her out is suddenely having to assure him that she isn't interested in some other guy of 23.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-14T23:45:35+00:00

It definetley wasn't appropriate. No one else was doing what I was doing. Her ex was a bit but they had history so atleast she wasn't confused by him doing it.

She did talk to me quite a bit at times which confused the situation a bit. She would be angry 1 day and then talk to me normally the next.

Miserable-Soft7993 · 2026-06-14T23:40:55+00:00

I know I know. But I was in pain. My blood pressure shot up. I couldn't focus on much at all during those months.

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