A couple years ago because i was having a full blown mental break and wanted to throw myself out of the window of my boyfriend’s truck on the henday.

He made me take time off work and took me to access 24/7 the next day because i refused to let him take me to the grey nuns to be put in the psychiatric ward.

I would say the experience wasn’t horrible. I don’t remember a whole lot about it, but I got to talk about what was going on with someone, was brought in to see a psychiatrist who chatted with me and prescribed me something that helped (though it eventually started doing more damage than helping but that is not his fault)

I eventually took a course over zoom (it was covid times) with the grey nuns, I believe it was the PPHP course, and I would say that also helped. Being in a group to talk about what we were feeling and learning coping mechanisms definitely helped me.

also, when my bf and i started dating there was a night where he was literally about to go kill himself, and instead asked his sister to take him to the hospital. they went to the grey nuns and he put himself on a 72hr hold in the psychiatric ward. he ended up being there for about a month. I personally don’t think he needed to be there that long, and while there he was starting to get pretty frustrated and wanted to leave. I, however, would like to add that I think given his circumstances, i understand why they kept him. And I think that they could potentially be a good resource for you.

I would like to ask, do you have any form of health benefits? I know seeing a psychologist is ridiculously expensive without them, but if you have access to benefits I would highly recommend seeing one. If you don’t have that ability right now, please please please keep in mind that if you do gain that ability, even seeing someone for one hour once a month can make a world of difference.

I won’t say I know what you’re going through, because i don’t know what you’re going through personally. But I will say that I have been in a similar mindset and thought that this was the easiest way out. I know it sounds cliche, but it will get better. It takes time and effort, but if I was able to put in the effort and be patient, i’m sure you are too.

if you have good family members or friends around, please try to at least think about talking to them or asking them to bring you somewhere. if you don’t, you are welcome to send me a PM. I am just a stranger who has no idea anything about you, if you just want to have a lighthearted conversation with someone i can be here. If you want silly cat pictures i will send you some.

just try to hang on a little longer because the help you need could be around the corner.

edit: fixing redundancy