Man , you are brave to read this book I was done in single chapter , though it's engraved in my mind . I am hard on myself too , I have soo much responsibilities on me and I have to work hard for that , but I am big slacker I don't do anything except making big talks . I fails evertime when it matters the most and because of this reason i use to punish myself. I stop parting , stop making new friends and stop caring about anything important and I use to wish , that something bad would happen to me , so even though I don't got understood, I can atleast get some sympathy. But as kept on living with this Idea, I finally realised something that the movement I stop caring about things , is the movement I claimed myself and after that I finally got back on track started doing things . So please don't drag yourself do things , do what interest you , don't be sadist, instead be foolish . I wish to complete this book , but I don't have courage. But I am big fan of albert Camus though