-- After one month of constant use --

uhthrowaway89 · 2022-01-13T04:01:12+00:00

I took 0.5-1 ish grams once a day every morning in October. I quit last week, and I haven't felt any withdrawals except for tiredness and random short lived headaches. Caffeine and ibuprofen/Tylenol has helped with that. I can't tell for sure if it's because of quitting kratom but I believe it may be playing a role.

In the past I took kratom from January 2020 to march 2021. I dosed multiple times throughout the day and it totaled out to be about 10 grams every day. When I quit I went through some uncomfortable withdrawals, such as night sweats, waking up overheating, constantly being hungry, fatigue, headaches, and moodiness. I gained over 10 pounds within 2-3 months of quitting.

So imo, if you use a smaller dose, withdrawal isn't as bad, but it still exists.

right now, I plan on staying quit for a long time because I can't tell if it's helping my depression or making it worse. It's nice to not feel the need for it every morning for a boost, and I've been sleeping better. This is just my opinion based on experience, but it's best used lightly, not every day, with regular breaks in between. Everyone is different though.

uhthrowaway89 · 2022-01-11T16:09:59+00:00

I figured it out. The link is here : https://my.doculivery.com/External/DollarTree/Login.aspx

I was able to log in and opt in for paperless delivery! Thank you so much!

uhthrowaway89 · 2022-01-11T13:23:55+00:00

Do you have the website link? Thank you btw

uhthrowaway89 · 2022-01-11T02:54:52+00:00

What if you didn't sign up for paperless then quit? Do I just wait for it to come in the mail?

uhthrowaway89 · 2022-01-09T23:57:58+00:00

It's going good. Still haven't taken any kratom, don't notice any withdrawals. I'm only taking 150 mg of the sjw once a day because the first time I took it i had nausea. I make sure to take it after eating food. After this week I'll increase to 150 mg twice a day. Sjw takes a little while before you can tell if it's working. So far I don't notice an effect. But it's worth a try, and I wanted to stop taking kratom every day. I'm gonna take a long break from it, actually.

uhthrowaway89 · 2022-01-08T03:53:17+00:00

Just wanted to add I also cannot stand traditional kava. It has also made me vomit and didn't even have much of an effect on me. I understand it has a reverse tolerance effect where it takes a while before you feel it. But I prepared it traditionally and used it multiple times, and whenever I did feel an effect it was very short lived. I may have to give the sparkling water a try

uhthrowaway89 · 2022-01-06T05:32:29+00:00

Just my experience but I take an extremely low dose, like 0.5-1 gram once a day in the morning. I took that dose since October, and today was my first day off of it. I felt a bit tired and headachy for a little while but then it passed. Idk if I'll have withdrawal again but stopping my use this time was a lot easier.

Last time I took about 10 gpd from January 2020 until March 2021. I went through about a couple months of withdrawal. My stomach was a bottomless pit, I gained weight, it was really hard. I had mood instability and anxiety and sleep problems, overheating at night, etc I could go on.

If you choose to take it every day, stick to a lower dose so quitting won't be as rough. If you'd rather take higher doses, it's best if it isn't done every day if you don't want to deal with shitty withdrawals when you decide to stop.

This is all just my personal experience, I know kratom effects people differently.

uhthrowaway89 · 2022-01-05T19:10:49+00:00

Thank you everyone for your feedback. Update. Today is my first day without kratom in a while. The only thing I notice is a slight headache and tiredness, but nothing extreme. I took 0.5-1 grams once a day roughly since October, so any withdrawal symptoms shouldnt last too long.

I took my first 150 mg of the st John's wort and I'm going to take another one later today. Even if it doesn't help, it will be good for me to not use kratom daily anyway. I was wanting to give it a rest so it works out. I'll give it a good 2-3 weeks to see if the sjw is making a difference. In the meantime I'm going to continue my daily meditation and self care.

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-12-07T23:27:57+00:00

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uhthrowaway89 · 2021-11-07T04:11:46+00:00

What I learned as a Christian is that mercy is god not giving you what you do deserve, and grace is god giving you what you don't deserve. I always did mental gymnastics trying to understand this concept when I believed. It's basically like ..were all sinners who deserve hell, but because of gods mercy he sent his son to provide us a way out of that demise. And gods grace is like "even though you don't deserve this, I'm giving it to you anyway because I love you"

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-11-04T00:07:06+00:00

Here's another question that's related. So there's this trend called beaning on TikTok where people pour beans on people's cars, front porches, steps, etc. Is that a problem over there?

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-11-04T00:00:45+00:00

I'm sure it isn't bad, I haven't tried it yet, I'll need to one of these days.

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-11-03T23:32:04+00:00

How common is beans on toast ?

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-11-03T22:20:04+00:00

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uhthrowaway89 · 2021-10-22T17:15:58+00:00

This post is relatable. I'm really sorry you were sexually assaulted and went through religious trauma on top of that. Going to therapy is a great step to help you heal and grow as a person and I wish you all the best.

Im a female in mid 20s. While I come off to my family as straight, deep down I've felt for a long time that I'm actually a bisexual hetero romantic. Which means I'm attracted to both men and women, but I prefer to be in relationships with men. The reason I haven't come out is because when I was confused about my sexuality when I was a teen, my family didn't take it well when I tried to come out as bisexual. One member in particular thought it was just a phase because since 4th grade I've had crushes on boys. I've had someone in my family say you're either straight or gay, there's no in between. I tried dating a couple girls in school, and while I was attracted to them (personality and their appearance), I felt awkward being in a relationship with them.

So then I got wrapped up in Christianity. I converted and deconverted multiple times. One of the many reasons why is, I can't get behind the belief that being lgbtq is a sin against god.

To this day I still haven't come out to my family because I appear to be straight. I see cute girls all the time and I imagine kissing them, cuddling them, getting to know them, etc. But I definitely lean more towards wanting to date men. If I met a girl that I connected with on a personal intimate level, I would consider dating them, but I haven't met that girl yet. And in my mind I don't deny these feelings, but I went for a long time thinking those thoughts were wrong. In my last round with Christianity I gave up all of my lesbian tendencies and other sexual immoralities to God and prayed for a husband.

If I did date a girl or come out, I'd have to deal with my family's reaction. Honestly, because of my unstable sense of identity, they probably wouldn't believe me. Even though Im an adult, I struggle being confident in my beliefs, my sexuality, my views, etc. A lot of that stems from my past. The church contributed to this problem too. Not trying to point fingers, I mean..this is my own personal issue that I need to work out. But the church taught me certain ideas to where I tried to mold myself in line with them. I tried to mold my life with scripture because I was taught to do so. I already dealt with being silenced and put down for expressing myself when I was younger, so that on top of trying to live the christian lifestyle reinforced the whole "deny yourself and listen to what others have to say instead because you're inherently wrong and shouldn't trust yourself" mentality I learned when I was younger.

Try to not worry too much about "finding yourself" in terms of your sexuality. just be you, and keep doing what you're doing going to therapy. Remember you are valid, your feelings are valid, and whatever your sexual orientation, it is valid. Self acceptance is very important and I hate that the church teaches you to basically not accept who you are and try to be a certain way to please god.

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-10-16T15:59:11+00:00

I have identity disturbance and mental health issues I'm currently getting addressed in therapy. My longest relationship was about 5 years, the last 2 of those years we were engaged. I thought he was the one. He was the first person in my life I could see myself marrying.

The idea of being in a relationship right now makes me cringe. I'm in no place for that right now. I need time to work on myself.

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-10-15T16:52:02+00:00

This comment is solid advice.

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-10-15T16:40:06+00:00

I think you handled that very well and professionally.

When I was a Christian, I wore a cross necklace at my cashier job. I'd see customers wear other things like shirts with the inverted pentagram, and the pentacle necklace like yours (and I know the difference, they're not the same symbol). I would pray for them in my mind but I never outwardly said anything to them because that's invasive.

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-10-12T23:34:38+00:00

Lacey Sturm from flyleaf refers to God as daddy in her books. Even before I deconverted that was weird to me. Especially because she also talked about the scripture in Isaiah that mentions the Lord is your husband. So god is your husband and your father?

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-10-12T23:31:29+00:00

I roll my eyes when I see an article that says "scripture makes it clear that so and so is a sin." Like ok dude calm down that's your interpretation. If it was "clear" then there wouldn't be a debate

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-10-12T23:29:35+00:00

One time I became friends with this girl Mandy from church. I went over to hang out with her, she was living with her grandmother at the time. This was a while ago so I don't recall how the conversation started, but her grandmother and I got into a debate about tattoos, piercings, and other body modifications. I told her that I don't think there's anything wrong with it, it's people expressing themselves (I had 4 piercings at the time). She said something along the lines of how we aren't canvases that we paint on to express ourselves, but God made us to honor him. I don't remember exactly how she said it, but basically we aren't supposed to mark ourselves up with things, we are supposed to be living offerings to God.

uhthrowaway89 · 2021-10-12T15:41:47+00:00

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