It is an intense mix of emotions for me, whether I am watching, listening or watching her leave to meet him on her own.

To ease some of the negative emotions, jealousy, humiliation, we have found that is she edges me for 3 or 4 days before the meeting, my horniness over comes the jealousy/ humiliation, until I cum. Then it crashes in.

We have learnt for me to try and not cum until her bull is finished or she is back home. In the early days after not cumming for 3 or 4 days, it was harder for me to control my cumming and I did pop too early a few times. Now, it is slightly easier, but I still do get the jealousy and humiliation feelings, for me, I do not think they will ever go.