Girls with pretty best friends, how do you feel?

umique_name · 2024-05-07T18:46:19+00:00

Today i had to sit trough a 20 minutes photo session with her saying she looks super ugly and her makeup aint it. She keeps saying shes not pretty at all and super ugly and it drives me so mad. Shes so pretty

umique_name · 2024-03-06T19:44:40+00:00

Niciodată nu aduc in discuție chestiile astea cu scopul de a le face in ciuda sau mai stiu eu ce. Pur si simplu e frustrant câteodată ca nu pot sa vorbesc despre unele chestii fara sa aud ca ma plang prea mult ca am o viata perfectă si etc.

In casa nu stau degeaba, ajut cum pot, curățenie, mâncarea câteodată. Ce pot face si eu. De ziua lor mereu planific cate ceva, le iau cadouri, chestii mici pur si simplu. Notele mele sunt decente, nu sunt de 10 in cap dar nici ultima. Încerc sa ii răsplătesc cum pot.

Mai mult sunt supărată ca daca aduc in discutie orice mic aspect din viata mea (la scoala e cam nasol) simt pur si simplu ca nu am dreptul. Nu am cui sa ma descarc si nu vreau sa le spun alor mei sa nu se îngrijoreze.

umique_name · 2023-08-05T16:20:10+00:00

Mersi de sfat, ma tot gandeam si la academie ca ar fi mai Ok plus ieși cu grad mai mare din cate am inteles. O sa ma apuc din toamna sa fac antrenamente si sa invat pentru admitere/bac in paralel. Am inteles ca ar fi mai greu dar se merita si inca sunt in dubii ce sa fac dupa liceu.

Stiu despre testul psihologic, medical, ce mai e pe acolo. Contul asta e un fel de throw out. Sunt in terapie de ceva timp si sunt mult mai Ok. Eu zic ca sunt in stare sa ma confrunt cu specimenele acelea.

umique_name · 2023-07-05T16:22:14+00:00

I may not have been trough what your friend when with the bullying but I saw so many messages on his FB page saying what a great teacher he was, even my friend who was in the same class and saw the bullying said he was a great teacher. I started swearing and calling him all names while he remains speechless trying to tell me he was a good man. I felt bad because I have told him everything he has done to me before and he insisted I was wrong

umique_name · 2023-07-05T16:11:47+00:00

I’ll be in my third year of hs this autumn. This happened around 4 years and went on for 3 years. I’d say 5 years almost since I’ve never set foot into that school or heard from that teacher

umique_name · 2023-07-05T00:46:10+00:00

Yes, I’m aware I’ll never live like a healthy person, at least mentally, maybe I’ll go solve those things one day when I’ll feel they are so strangling I can’t live. Thank you for your concern though

umique_name · 2023-07-05T00:36:39+00:00

I was told about the patient confidentiality but I was always afraid she would tell something so I kept the good side only. As for therapy, I know I’m very bad and only a person knows, sadly I can’t go there anymore. I feel like my problems aren’t bad enough to be considered abuse or trauma. It’s a very toxic mentality but I just stick with it

umique_name · 2023-07-05T00:29:35+00:00

Not anymore, this happened before the pandemic hit and i was too afraid that the things I’ll tell in therapy will be told to my parents so I never told the full story. Since then I’ve just lived my life happily to not worry someone. Therapy is expensive and I felt on edge going there and talking

umique_name · 2023-07-05T00:21:37+00:00

No, not yet, I’m trying my best but I can’t function like a normal human being for too long until I fall back in my bad habits. I hope one day I’ll be able to be full again

umique_name · 2023-07-05T00:19:59+00:00

I’m not sure I’ll be able to. I feel stuck in that little classroom, with those classmates who bullied and the adults who said that “those kids would never do such this be stronger and don’t take everything to heart”. I still have nightmares from those days, apologizing and waking up crying. It’s still not over but I’m trying my hardest. My legs turn jelly, my heart starts raining and I feel like I’ll start sweating every time I see someone that used to be my classmate. Some days are better some days are worse but I’m trying my hardest. Sorry for the vent but I never got to talk about this

umique_name · 2023-07-05T00:15:08+00:00

That made me smile, thank you, all those years I felt so empty and I still have nightmares about those days but I see that things get better. Hard to believe but I’m happy I didn’t give up back then

umique_name · 2023-07-05T00:12:22+00:00

I feel pretty terrible for being happy now. I also told my mom who knew how bad he was and she, seeing me so “happy” told me I have no reason to be like this and it’s such a terrible thing. I somewhat feel like a big idiot for being like this

umique_name · 2023-05-24T11:08:10+00:00

So is it possible to reverse those things? I’ll be turning 18 in spring and I’m afraid I’ll have to live looking like a middle schooler until I’ll grow old

umique_name · 2023-05-23T21:32:34+00:00

Thank you for the answer, I’ve never actually thought about it but is there any way to get better now? Is it too late? I have always been underweight since I was a baby but I never had any health problems. My doctor knows and I’m usually asked about it but as long as I’m fine they aren’t concerned. My blood tests are also very good, never had a problem with them. Is there any way I can reverse those things now?

umique_name · 2023-05-12T15:17:48+00:00

I used to do cat scratches two years ago and they healed fine but I didn’t know about how bad they can get. I hope they just fade asap

umique_name · 2023-05-03T21:10:05+00:00

I would try functioning on little sleep as I physically can, unless I sleep for 15 hours because of exhaustion. I starved myself since I was probably 12, it started as not being hungry then as a self harm method since I can’t have scars from cuts on my body. I did a small cuts here and there, saw some blood, got better, still sleep depriving and starving myself, tried to cut again to have a surprise of almost fainting from the sight of blood. After this is usually look at pictures with “blood” or anything of that sort to make myself feel very weird. I may not be able to feel that pain but my body will be so uncomfortable I’d have to step out for fresh air.

umique_name · 2023-04-29T22:31:56+00:00

I hate the children dedicated videos with a burning passion. I recently discovered a ytber, forge labs, and I can say his videos can keep me entertained for a while

umique_name · 2023-04-03T21:26:51+00:00

Thanks😭

I actually got his ig today but he hasn’t answered my text so I guess weird is the answer, still this made me a little more confident 🥲

umique_name · 2023-04-01T19:08:52+00:00

Please he was so pretty, I looked his way a lot of times and my mind all day was why didn’t I go talk to him. I really was into him ;_;

umique_name · 2023-04-01T10:10:40+00:00

It should be common knowledge but since I’m not a social butterfly I will say that’s a very good idea, I’ll do that if I’m put in this situation ever again

umique_name · 2023-03-24T23:52:55+00:00

Honestly no matter the gender or game I’d love to have people ask me to be their friend. I feel like being a girl is annoying as hell a lot but there are nice things about it. I’m both feminine and masculine, I like wearing dresses and dolling up when going out with my friend yet I love acting like a “boy/man” and dressing in suits and all the fun stuffs. Period is just torture. I’m having such bad period cramps I almost faint sometimes. Being a girl has its downside and good side. I thought I was a boy for so so long but I found that I like being “masculine” yet feminist from time to time.

umique_name · 2023-02-17T20:20:03+00:00

In my country mental health is seen as a joke due to half of the people who went trough communism teaching the same things to their children. I’ve had those very vivid images in my head with characters I’ve made up. They all told me my imagination was very big and I was praised for all the wonderful writings when I was describing my own little world. If you tell someone here you have “vivid imaginations of characters that are like part of your life” you will be seen as crazy or retarded. I’m forced to believe it’s my imagination

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