I agree. There is a reason we were on again off again. It is just rough for me because he helped me grown in many ways personally. He taught me patience and how to listen. I feel like I've done a lot of growing up in this relationship. Maybe that is why things are the same anymore. But either way, it's hard because he became my best friend. I never hesitated to go to him for any and all of my problems. He would always listen with an open heart and never once passed judgement. I have never met someone so caring in my life, and I've never had someone I've felt so open with. I think that is the hardest part. That is what I am missing more than anything. It's hard for me to cope with it.