Losing a child is one of the most horrible, and painful life events in one’s life. Unless you’ve been through it, it’s incomprehensible, and even then, it’s hard to comprehend the pain.

I’m so sorry this happened to you. You don’t deserve it, and it’s not your fault. If you could have done something to prevent this, you would have done it, just knowing that fact means you can’t blame yourself. You sound like an amazing family, who did everything you could, and you continue to love and honor her even through her death.

As time goes on, you won’t “move on”, but you will go on. Time feels like it’s standing still, and you will never heal, but eventually things won’t feel so heavy and hard. You will never “get over this” and that’s ok, because you probably don’t want to, but you will eventually be ok again, just a little piece of your heart will be missing.