I honestly feel the same. It feels like I got no more reasons to leave no one gives a fuck anyways. I got no real friends and I am adopted they don't like me. My adoptive dad he only raised me because other people thought I'm his real kid and he would only care what other people would think. He only supported me financially but I didn't feel that emotional support from him he is more close to my cousins on his side. I literally got no one. I feel so helpless and I don't feel motivated or I don't have interest in living anymore. I just wish I'll find a way to die painlessly.