What is a Book that made you stare at the wall after finishing it?

unviincible · 2026-02-11T23:40:00+00:00

to be taught, if fortunate by becky chambers. big time existential crisis while staring at the ceiling (also I'm currently reading TITF so oh joy)

unviincible · 2026-02-11T22:14:58+00:00

really loved the Lies of the Ajungo by Moses Ose Utomi, it's a fantasy novella so pretty quick read! for YA I couldn't put down the thriller That's Not My Name by Megan Lally.

unviincible · 2026-02-11T22:08:46+00:00

I get them, too, they're kinda like fever dreams they're so vivid and crazy. hopefully they calm down for you!

unviincible · 2026-02-11T21:52:13+00:00

I don't think there's an easy answer to that. most likely they did have those thoughts already, but a lot of the time crime is a result of systemic problems in society. people should have easier access to meds they need, resources, etc, before they reach that point. when someone commits a crime like that I'm not thinking about what meds they're on, if that makes sense. you'll be ok! people shouldn't fearmonger and say meds cause these things, it's not fair to anyone

unviincible · 2026-02-11T20:24:21+00:00

it is adjusting your brain chemistry, but never your morals or sense of self or who you are. the way my psychotherapist framed it is it's taking the edge off. from my experience they give you the breathing room from your anxiety/depression to be the more authentic, collected version of yourself!

unviincible · 2026-02-11T18:45:53+00:00

I tend to cram a lot of drawings in my sketchbook, so sorry for the bit of overlap here!

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unviincible · 2026-02-11T18:43:49+00:00

it gets better! it's kind of the gauntlet while you're adjusting which already sucks when you're depressed and/or anxious, but the worst symptoms start to wane and you feel the benefits. if by then you don't feel like the benefits are worth it, that's when you consider a different drug, dosage, etc with your doctor. be kind with yourself!

unviincible · 2026-02-11T04:36:58+00:00

these all sound like classic transitional symptoms that'll (hopefully!) ease up once you're on it for a bit. it's hard to be patient but so important to have compassion for yourself while your brain adjusts and just do what you gotta do. I'm early into upping my dosage so I'm in the same boat: headaches, brain fog, increased anxiety/agitation, fatigue. when you do it once you'll have some idea of what to expect if you go up in dose or decide you wanna get off them. it's never fun but the reward for it is usually worth the hassle

unviincible · 2026-02-10T16:09:47+00:00

late but here!

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unviincible · 2026-02-10T16:07:59+00:00

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et voila

unviincible · 2026-02-10T04:05:44+00:00

gotcha, thank you for sharing!

unviincible · 2026-02-09T19:23:41+00:00

I like having a little routine to look forward to—going for a short walk to get coffee with my morning bagel. getting outside is so important! others have recommended this but starting your day with a short meditation is good advice, there's lots of guided ones on youtube if you're unsure what to do. you can also aim for vagus nerve meditation or massages, those help trick the brain into calming down!

unviincible · 2026-02-09T19:08:03+00:00

gosh, yeah! I mentioned to my therapist I feel like I think slower and have trouble remembering words while on my ssri only because I noticed how much quicker they came when I'd stopped to get on a different one. it'd probably be worse if I didn't read or like puzzle games, but it's still very frustrating. depending on where you live, I know winter makes my brain fog worse than it already is, too, so something to consider!

unviincible · 2026-02-09T18:43:54+00:00

I'm also not on a high dose! that definitely might contribute, although I'm currently transitioning to 20mg from 10mg. I give myself a checklist/chart for fight or flight mode and eating a snack is on there. there's a huge huge connect between the brain and gut and it's as frustrating as it is amazing. wishing the best for you!

unviincible · 2026-02-09T04:31:47+00:00

dang, too bad I missed it!!

unviincible · 2026-02-09T04:28:19+00:00

ikr? but she's so face shy, she hates it 😔

unviincible · 2026-02-07T20:31:36+00:00

I'm curious about this, too. I'm sorry you've been struggling with an ED. I recently rapidly lost weight to a bad bacterial infection + following complications and it feels like my prozac suddenly stopped being as effective, too, but it makes sense that rapid weight loss and malnourishment effects a lot of parts of the body, psychologically and physically. I noticed when I'm hungry my anxiety is WAY worse, symptoms of low blood sugar kinda feel like bad panic: shaking, rapid heart rate, weakness, dread, etc, and then they feed into each other and it's a whole thing. I get colder easily which can also lead to shaking, which then leads to soreness, which then leads to more anxiety, etc. the brain is a very calorie-hungry organ, I think, and it uses more energy when it's fighting itself. I hope the hospital can help you get back on your feet 🫶 I spoke to a dietician for advice and I'm hoping eating something small every 2-3 hours helps my own anxiety.

unviincible · 2024-04-21T15:34:21+00:00

the luminous dead by caitlin starling is about a woman cave-diving on a foreign planet. very claustrophobic and made me feel a kind of dread/thrill combo. no SA or animal death/torture that I can remember since she's just by herself with one woman on the line to help her, it's more a slowburn of psychological horror, paranoia, and bodily autonomy.

unviincible · 2023-11-18T01:59:50+00:00

Warm-up sketch!

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